another downfall. another depressing item. life is getting more and more meaningless. who am i anyway? who even cares anymore? this person here is just a loser with bad grades. loser. can't even qualify to become a nerd. loser. let me list out all my failing items from the beginning of the year to right now.
1. public speaking
2. nationals
3. council
4. guitar
5. science blanked out
6. counselling
7. twisted ankle
8. math
and a whole lot more. i bet im so lousy that i can like disappear from this earth and no one would care because a loser is gone. no one. not even my mom. she hates me. im such a loser. i studied, it's not as if i didn't try. loser. loser. LOSER. LOSER. LOSER. LOSER.
im such a *****

i sprained my ankle again. i am amazed at my ankle power. it was sprained during training when we decided to warm up by playing basketball with the netballers. then i was shadowing this girl, she kicked my leg then my leg went crazy, fell sideways and then it decided that, "i would sprain today." and thus, my ankle sprained.
ros is the sprained-ankle expert. she sprained it three times, then she helped to stick ice on my ankle, super painful. it's like something eating the part of your flesh away. as if something is gorging into your flesh, like many ants eating and going at you. rar, i hate getting a sprained ankle because you cannot do anything for the whole training and you cant seem to go home too because your mom cant pick you and you cant seem to climb up the bus. after spending time watching the other throwers train, my mom finally picked me. she scolded me all the way home. but the only thing that seemed to get into my head was, you are very clumsy. sounds familiar? i think it's coz ms yeo drilled it into my head. hahaha
when i arrived home, i found this ankle guard, apparrently it was bought a few years ago because i kept spraining my ankle. *slaps forehead* how could i ever forget?
she then proceeded to bring me to this psycho chinese physician to put some black medicine on my poor ankle. and wow, it stinks. the worst thing is, i cant bathe tomorrow morn. i can only wash up. wth. nvm, i think i shall bathe with my leg on a chair. WAHAHAHAH i wont be smelly.not smelly. =) ok besides that, i cant do pe, and it's the last module for badminton! T.T i want to play for the last module! i want pe!
today is a depressing day.

wheehee im feeling tired and sleepy but i'll still come up with this random post. i need a jacket, and my dad doesn't wanna lend me. he thinks that his is too expensive and anyway it's too big. i wonder how did huiying get the jacket. boo i need an older brother, i would like very much to have an older brother. wouldn't it be nice if i had a brother that could lend me all his suits or anything that i need for drama when im acting as a guy? besides, i would have a mentor too. awww, i want an older brother! boo. maybe i should just stick up an advertisment that says:
*advertising for an older brother*
must be at least 15 years old. and taller than 167cm.
but that kinda sounds a little wrong. nah, let me correct the statement, it sounds really wrong. but it's true, dont you think it would be nice if you had an older sibling that could guide you.
i finally completed my flash today. i feel so accomplished. thinking about feeling accomplished, i dont understand why people keep telling me that i look too self satisfied. i dont think i look self satisfied, do i? it's just this smile that sneaks onto my face all the time when im not aware or when im really happy. and eeeeeeeening that girl she told me i was amusing. i dont see anything amusing about me, other than the self-satisfied, but not really self-satisfied smile. liuyi is not amusing with her strange dance or hand movements. blub blub

think about this: you go to ur grandma's house expecting to have a good time there with your grandma, instead you get a terrible time there. your little cousin decides that she wants to read ur msgs, and when you, feeling annoyed, decided to take back the phone, she whines like crazy and starts to cry. your mom looked at you as if you have done something wrong, very wrong. so you have to irritatedly give her the stupid phone and watch her invade your privacy. and if that is not bad enough, she picks up a pen and decides to draw a picture over the science (bio) notes you are making for your end-of-years exam. and it's on human repro which i apparrently SUCK. so the notes which i spent 2 hours making is gone. just like that it's gone. you tell your mom, hoping that your mom would help you take revenge, but no. your mom just laughs and says that she's still young. harlo, she does understand what is NO right? after that, her older sis decides to flip through your file and when she finally finds your drawing of the vampires that you were designing, she surveys them as if she is some professional and tells you that your drawings are close to real *ahem* but since when has there been unreal drawings? so i just said, uh, ok thanxx she smiles happily and leaves your drawing on the floor. that i didn't mind but when the younger irritant came bubbling over trying to get me to play with her when i was so obviously trying to remake my notes, she steped on my drawings and crumpled them with her feet. she dont know how LONG i took to draw those 2 vampires right? 1 day for each vampire, from 3 to 11 at night? when you scream and snatch the drawing away from her, she cries as if she is in the right. wow.
and that's not all.
after leaving the dreadful place, (please mind that i only went there to visit my granny and my ah gong.) my mom decides that the carpark was at the opposite end of the carpark where her car supposedly is. so she freakishly lead us there. and searched the 3 carparks that were side by side when the real carpark the car is in is a BLOCK BY ITSELF. she kept insisting that that was the right carpark and wont let me lead her to the carpark at the opposite end, which meant that the other carpark was the correct carpark. she searched for a LONGGISH 45minutes before i decided to take a risk, mom, i know where the car park is. YOU follow ME. she followed me coz my sister also thought that i was right. and 5 minutes later? I, ME, MYSELF found the car. i rawk and they dont, i rule and they dont. and the worst thing is she came home and said, dear, (which is also my dad) you know girl (which is me) lead us to the wrong carpark and started grumbling about my faults. FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I LED YOU GUYS TO THE CAR! THE CREDIT GOES TO ME. ALL MINE.
*twitch twitch twitch* im v-e-r-y tired of getting hidden by the shadows and letting people take the credit for what i had done while i take the punishment for what they have done. *TWITCH*

my snr sprained her ankle again today. eeps, i hope she get well soon. lol.
my toe is currently bleeding like nobody's business. it soaked up 2 tissue papers and created a trail from my room to my mom's room. it amazes me, the fact that i have so much blood to spare. i think it's still bleeding eventhough it's wrapped up like a mummified bloody toe that came from the ancient egypt. no good! but u noe seeing the blood ooze out from the cut is pretty interesting in a vile way. and my blood is super red =D
ooo u noe, in the future, satellites would be so common that we could mistake satellites for stars. i mean how scary would be that? "hey man! wish upon a star!" "is that even a star? better not wish!." eeps, there would be no more wishing upon stars and everything wont be sweet anymore! hmm actually come to think about it, a star is BIG but it looks super small to us, then how small would WE look from the star? teehee! super small. (im getting really distracted by stars) maybe we could grow bigger if we stopped doing evil things! like killing people and stuff. (i liked lynncheng's grp the reader's theatre, super sweet, *sings a christmas carol*)
i want to go to paradise! =) where there are no fighting, no electrical applience. just fireflies for our only light and peace for eternity. (getting VERY distracted here)

i want headphones for my christmas prezzie! =) those nice nice headphone which are super silverish metal color and can block out all the sounds when listening to the music. eeps, i want those headphones! so pretty! lalala, nothing much happened today! so i shall not blog about today. i shall blog about my handphone that is stupid wahahahaha. oh course, my handphone is like 4 years old? or is it 5 years old. i need a new phone, it refuses to charge now. so it's like every 5 minutes you have to go check if the thing is still charging, believe it or not, normally it decides that it's happy being weak with a low battery and 100% refuses to charge. most of the time i come to school with a handphone that has like 1 battery symbol left. conserve conserve CONSERVE! i need a new phone, my phone sucks! i want a new phone and headphones! i shall tell that to my mom! i can imagine the scene.
"mom, may i have a new phone and headphones at the same time? the silver one"
"WHAT? why you need new phone? your phone only 4 years old! dont need to change la."
boo, but looking at what she said, it's kinda contradicting coz she changes her phone like 5 times a year? bleachxx she spents lotsa money on herself and no new hp for me T.T
lalalla, hci havin camp now T.T so lucky. and we'll be getting an e-learning week! SO FUN! we get to stay at home =3

nothing much happened today. most of the math lesson was productively used to learn trigo, or was it productively used to correct our moral values? somehow i cant really remember. we did english compo today, it was reflecting about the love in romeo and juliet while refering to 2 characters. how sad. i was like writting excessively detailed explaination about how juliet was related to the theme love and 45mins went by, leaving me only about 15 or so minutes to do by second character. in the end, the 2nd character, more commonly known as lady capulet, only had about 7 lines, or one paragraph. juliet had like one and a half page?! im so going to fail this test. NO scrub that. IM GOING TO PASS! i will pass! =shakes fist=
*i got very distracted by soggae and her friend, ok here goes the rest*
i had my first training today! it was SO super tiring eventhough this is considered as a slack training even in our standards (which is like low). haha, i think it's probably coz of the long break that we had. me and peilih have to train extra hard this year if we want to make it to nationals the next year. =D wheeheee, orh we did volleyball for cool-down and i realised that i have no talent for volleyball at all. boo! LOL i couldn't even hit the ball straight.
and now i leave with a note: confinement of oneself brings out the inner demons that would eventually eat you up.

death by myself
liuliu.lette inc.
key: liuliu's part, lette's part

strangled cry and shattered hope
a prayer for sweet release
look at the stars then at the rope
a longing, a dream of peace

Im afraid, -
someone save me from myself
fearing that oblivion would overtake
im a hostage to my past

the light's too bright, blinded -
the night's too dark, stranded -
i've lost my identity
whad led me here, mediocrity -

Im afraid, -
someone save me from myself
fearing the oblivion would overtake
im a hostage to my past

shut up
it's not my fault, dont judge me
by what you see
go eat yourself
in and out coz you dunno anything
i'm not to be blamed

oh crap-
eat till you choke and die
coz you know i dont care
who even cares about the soul
disappear-
you hypocrite, dont talk to me
the burning pits of lies hurt
shut all your crap up
shut up!

i'll sacrifice to get
(freedom)
what i want
(freedom)

WOOHOO i LOVE JESUS! i just came back from 100% praise and worship! aww to all those who didn't make it to 100%! it just simply rawked so much that it's totally indescrible. you can be laughing and crying at the same time. and when you cry all you want to do is reach out to God to ask him to help you! AND THE BEST THING IS you know that you are GOOD ENOUGH for Jesus! I could really feel Jesus talking to me thru the people talking tonight. so many things that they said, although seemed cliched meant so much to me and applied so beautifully in my life. It makes you love Jesus more and that makes you want to jump up to praise and worship him! He;s the only one that i can live for in my life! Spread the love today! Love him with all your life. he has asked me to move on in my life! He is the best thing that can ever happen to me in my whole entire life. i tried so hard to harden my heart, to not to cry in the end, i still did. Love Jesus as Psalms 139: 14 says: I praise you for i am fearfully and wonderfully made. wonderful are your works; my soul knows it full well. LOVE HIM AS WE ARE ACCEPTED!

One way - Hillsongs
i lay my life down at your feet
you're the only one i need
i turn to you and you are always there
in troubled times it's you i seek
i put you first thats all i need
i humble all i am, all to you
one way
Jesus
You're the only one that i could live for
One way
Jesus
you're the only one that i could live for
you are always, always there
ever how and everywhere
your graceabounds so deeply within me
you will never ever change
yesterday today the same
forever till forever meets no end
one way
Jesus
you're the only one that i could live for
one way
Jesus
you're the only one that i could live for
you are the way the truth and the life
we live by faith and not by sight... for you
we're all living for you
one way
Jesus
you're the only one that i could live for!

i slept from 3pm to 9pm yesterday. then i woke up to take my dinner. at 11.30, i fell asleep again and i finally woke up 10am today. O.o i must really be exhausted. =D

linkin park: runaway
graffiti decorations
under a sky of dust
a constand wave of tension
on top of broken trust
the lessons that you taight me
i learn were never true
now i find myself in question
(they point the finger at me again)
guilty by association
(you point the finger at me again)
i wanna run away
never say goodbye
i wanna know the truth
instead of wondering why
i wanna know the answers
no more lies
i wanna shut the door
and open up my mind
paper bags and angry voice
under a sky of dust
another wave of tension
has more than filled me up
all my talk of taking action
these words were never true
now i find myself in question
(they point the finger at me again)
guilty by association
(you point the finger at me again)
i wanna run away
never say goodbye
i wanna know the truth
instead of wondering why
i wanna know the answers
no more lies
i wanna shut my door
and open up my mind
im gonna run away and never say goodbye
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
im gonna run awat and never wonder why
(gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away gonna run away)
im gonna run away and open my mind
(gonna run away
mind gonna run away gonna run away
mind mind gonna run away
mind gonna run away
mind gonna run away gonna run away
gonna run away mind)

todae, after school, i decided that i should do math in school as i didn't noe how to do many questions in the worksheet, so i dragged soggae to stay back with me. haha, fortunately she agreed. but she made me go down with her and meet gramps first, so in the end, there were three spastic people standing outside the audi back stage. you noe i miss the back stage, and i went in =3 it's still the same old pretty backstage =D
when we went up, we found eva in the classroom doing nothing. thus she decided to come with us. i was quite surprised coz it's like the basketballers, eva and weiyi, are always one clique by themselves and rarely hang abt the other students in the class orh except for maybe a few exceptional people, namely sheena and sarah. teehee so i was like "ooo eva is coming?!" haha, but it turned out pretty fun. we went to the sac and put all our bags down. feeling good, eva decided to attempt a few questions of math before deciding she was bored and slcaked. well, i tried to do but since i was so stupid, i couldn't do anything. well, the 2nd question eva taught that question LoL. soggae is the most hardworking person there. she completed a few more questions before all of us got really distracted and started crapping. i forgot what we first talked about but remember talking about getting lost. O.o that's like totally random but yeah, it seems that all of us have gotten lost before. blub blub then we laugh laugh crap crap bitch bitch... and cheryl came. so we stopped talking for awhile but she still didnt get the msg, so we gave up and decided to crap more then cheryl asked hey did you get into council?
and i was totally like im not sure. i guess soggae and eva knew better than to say anything about council lol. so the sentence was like hanging in mid air ready to get plucked out anytime. when she asked that question, i could literally feel myself freeze. thankfully, soggae came to the rescue saying, eh, you so anti-climax, suddenly ask that question. haha. luv soggae and eva LOL
then at about 5.45, we finally finished crapping and stuff. eva had to go first so we bid her goodbye and started packing our things rather quickly. cheryl was still there. then when we were out, i showed soggae something. and you noe what cheryl asked? did u slit ur wrist? i was like NO. and i was totally like thinking, even if i did, would i tell you? HAHAHAH.
=3 billy gilman rawks.

[easier to run] -linkin park
it's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone
something has been taken
from deep inside of me
a secret i've kept locked away
no one can ever see
wounds so deep they'll never show
they never go away
like moving pictures in my head
for years and years they played
if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move that i made i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would
sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didnt have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so
there would never be a past
just washing it aside
all the helplessness inside
pretending i dont feel misplaced
is so much simpler than change
it's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

the disappointment still applies. never have i wanted something so badly in my life that on many times i would rather die than not get it. but now, it's all over. and the worst thing is, the utter disappointment of mrs koh to me is affecting me so much that im thankful that there's a holiday tomorrow coz i dont even know if i can wake up and not cry tomorrow. the truth would sink in deeper and deeper until it's so deep within me that it'll never be gone. not now, not ever. the crushing effect of passion being crushed totally to its rock bottom where nothing exist or coexist. it's so much easier to run from all these. i have no right to run. there's no way that i can be captain of the throws team even if i wanted it so bloody much. who cares about this pathetic idiot who is crushed because she didn't get into council?! i wish i was like the others who just went, "ok, it's over, i didn't get in it's alright." INSTEAD I HAD TO CRY AND FEEL EVERYTHING THAT I'VE WORKED FOR SHATTER IN FRONT OF ME. i dont understand why. i did so much. i tried so hard. this is the result. the result for the passion that led me to feel so much, the passion that led me to put in all my spirit into council elections, the passion that allowed me to push away everything that told me "you wont make it." im so stupid. and dont tell me not to cry coz either you didn't get in and dont have the passion OR you got in and i wish you congratz. really from the bottom of my heart. i dont even think u'd see this.
who comes to my blog anyway? who voted for me? zero.

It always ends up like this. Laughing voices surrounding and im here, trapped in my own world. the others tell me to cheer up, smile again. well, i do. even if i do what good would it do if there's rarely any meaning in this sec school life anymore? who even cares that the hurt of that is slowly eating me up inside. "well, im sorry to tell you that you didn't make it. =smile=" how hypocritical. how amazing that people that i thought cared around me can just brush this off, eat me away, tearing me inside. who even cares that im not living a life that is utter failure, an utter flop. who even cares that my best friend got into council and i didn't. who even cares that jealousy is engraved so deeply into me.
all they're doing now are smiling. so am i. smiling on the outside, hurting in the inside. as usual, twoseven is full of life. life? what is life? is it the fragment of soul that we so dearly hold on to? or is it the meaningless existance in this shell, the human body?
nothing matters anymore

i was wrong! T.T they did come home to roar at me about my subject combinations and nxt year. eeps. so nxt time i cant be happie too early coz i'll probably just faint and die coz the nxt day it'll come. they tried to convince me into taking bsp when my chinese is so bad that my chinese teacher told my mom to speak chinese at home to try to improve my chinese. well, she did EESIP-speak chinese at home- at least for awhile before she gave up coz her chinese was equally as bad as mine except she refuses to face the fact that she's actually as bad as me =)
orh and my sister's oral (psle) is coming soon and she's like super scared. harloew, what is there so scary about psle oral? the teachers? well, apparently i dont think so coz the teachers there are like so nice coz they dont even know you and thus have no reason to dislike you unless he/she's super wonked up and decides that he/she hates everyone in the world. teehee. my sister told me that she was trembling like crazy when she walked into the room for oral (prelim) test. i was like O.o "no way man" she was totally like "yes way" so thus, i dont think she'll be going for any interviews during secondary school. boo! lalala it's a good day today.
cutting is VERY bad. and and alot of secondary school people seem to be doing that more often than ever. have any one of them ever thought about the consequences or rather others whose problems are much worse than they have to handle. i mean look, in singapore our lifes are like completely blessed with good food and stuff like that and no one in singapore is starving like 80% of the people in north korea do. we dont even eat bugs or tree barks. and yet the people over in north korea are happier than we are. why is that so? is it because all of us have become so pampered that we cant even stand a small portion of hardship? perhaps so. who would ever rescue us from the hole that we have dug for ourselves and buried ourselves in. darkness and cold surrounds. shivering in the awful darkness, none can do. we barricade our hearts, put it in padlocks because we were hurt by people that we love, people around us. but in actually fact, who is hurting ourselves more? them or us? everything that they do, everyone that's trying to help us outta that black hole is hurt in the process more than once. once hurt, twice shy. stupid really stupid statement. and cutting is an expression to help us release out hate? release our anger? release our hurt? shaddup. what does seeing the hurt and feeling the pain do? -written in reflection of a sngser that i dont know.

O.o im feeling rather braindead coz i really didnt get any scolding. wow this must be the 1st friggin time!

"so many people in this world are being hurt, and I can't just make it all go away. even giving my friends and family company and warm words won't make their pain disappear for good... I just wish I could make everyone happy, forever. "

You are Wind! Wind is the element of freedom, curiosity, justice, optimism, the thirst for knowledge, friendliness, sociability, bravery, an open mind, quick decision making, wit, aspirations, wonder, longing, zeal, and independence, but also of being mischievous, fickle, impatient, rash, or indecisive. It is extroverted and somewhere between logical and emotional.

Wind values freedom, learning, ambition, hope, honor, exploration, art, science, trade, sociability, and adaptability. All were made free and ought to be free to make their own decisions and pursue what goals they wish. That way all reach their full potential and can live happy and full lives. Although some may use liberty to pursue evil, at least they are now exposed and can be dealt with. Wind hates a cage above all else, and looks down upon oppressors, bullies, and closed-minded, hard-nosed officials. As such, they will gladly live and die to see any tyrant fall, throw off any oppressive establishment, stick up for the downtrodden, and shun any who holds another down to further his own selfish ends.

Element Power: Air, Weather, Air Pressure, Clouds, Dust, Fog, Mist, Sound, and Gases.

Colors: Grey, white, light blue, any light colors, pink, and metallic colors (especially silver).

Weapons: Bows, Longbows, Slings, Shuriken (ninja stars), Daggers, Darts, Nunchucks, Katanas, Sickles, and Rapiers.

Magic: Indirect and Offensive (The ability to move things with my mind, fly, and confuse/trick people with illusions.)

Power: Super Speed and Dexterity

Animals: Any birds or bats, Eagles, Falcons, Cheetahs, Leopards, Deer, Antelope, Griffons, and Rocs.

Values: Freedom, Hope, Curiosity, Adaptability, and Resourcefulness.

Weather: Warm and Wet (Mountains, Hills, Cliffs, Plateaus, Fields, Grasslands, Prairies, and Savannahs)

Time of Day: Morning

Season: Spring

Celestial Body: Stars

Personas: Explorer, Social Butterfly, Fun and Funny Guy/Girl, Freedom Fighter, and Rights Activist.

someone once told me that if i never give up hoping, never give up smiling, everything would be okay. i tried to stay faithful to those words for eternity. till death would these words part.

eeps, i just went to the dentist todae. it was kinda last minute. bleachxx, apparently this huge thing here called liuyi has developed wisdom tooths already. not one of it, but two of them. mamamia, and it's so horrendously painful T.T so in the end i have to wait till like after i come back from the exchange programme thingy before i can take out my wisdom teeth. and guess what? dr lee is gonna cut my tooth into 2 before sawing it into tiny little pieces and taking it out. like what? it's so painful! and and and i'll be awake to watch all that happening right in front of me WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
orh i think im gonna flunk math, so far i've only barely passed chinese and passed geog. i really hope that i can go for triple science next year! if not i'll be quite erms, quite muddled of what i wanna take. but i dunno if i can! eeps. orhorh and my mom just went for parents meeting and when she comes back all hell breaks loose. (note-to-self: prepare for a long lecture that probably lasts for 2 hours) it's just so depressing. school i mean. )=
lalala today nothing much happened. oh happy bdae zexin, if it's ur bdae LoL. blub blub, whose bdae is coming up? =| i hope we (2o7 council nominees) all get into council. we all deserve it. and no, i absolutely do not like that that that person.

i spent like the whole day doing unproductive things todae. in the morn, lynncheng decided that she would come over at 8.30 to bother me about science sia, so i had to wake up reaaaaaally early and be deprived of the late morn wake-up that i so do deserve! so in the end, my mom decided that she would chase me out of bed at 7.45. roar! it's like super early, and i was walking arnd the house like some forgotten zombie that refuses to take breakfast. i was so super tired?! and my mom was rattling on about how ugly her hair was and what time was lynncheng coming over. finally, she let me go and i of course escaped to the attic. then i chanced upon this book called the house of the scorpion which is like uber kewl. coz it's about this clone that was supposed to be loved by his master but in the end he discovers that he was only created or matter of factly, put onto this earth, onto this master's lap to give his master another life. as in a heart transplant when his master's heart fails him. and that is like evil, but the book itself is like super interesting. so interesting that i refuse to put down the book when lynncheng finally came at 9. she came half an hour late! deprivation of sleep!
we tried to do our science sia and i got this huge tube of super glue from my auntie nami and the glue was so super uber sticky that it took off one whole patch of hair from lynncheng's leg when lynn driped glue onto her leg LOL. finally after alot of trouble, we made the stupid sia toy. except it wasn't much of a toy ewwness.
then i went out for 6 hours plus, i took about 45 mins to cut my hair and then went over to my auntie's watch shop for the rest of the 5 hours 15 mins to wait for my mom and my sis. and they took a friggin 5 hours to make their hair nice. wow im soooooooo amazed. and what was i doing during those 5 hours? pretending to be complimenting how nice the watch looked on them when it really doesn't. them as in those people who were buying watch. some of them were so rude! to cut it short, i was running arund in a watch shop serving people, eating peanut pancakes and drinking orange juice. ahhh~~ my life is good. so good. and after waiting for 5 hours, my mom finally came and guess what, the hairstyle results on both of them weren't nice at all, it was kinda horrendous actually. boo it's not nice. my sister thinks she looks so cute in the rebonded hair, but i think otherwise. she's such a bimbo. i bet she'll get a boyfriend even before i start puking on her or even before i say presto. gosh, what is my family doing? where on earth is it heading to? orh and guess what? that was my day. and at the end of this unproductive day? im here blogging to save this undead blog of mine.
orh yesterday allyssa came. it was super kewl. she showed me lotsa things and teachers in hk international sch suck so much that u wont even want to be seen studying there. and she claims that most of them are ang mos put into her words. haha, it's funny how she can have an american accent and still use this tyle of singlish. ohwells, one cannot wish for the best in everything.
orh and tues, soggae and sy came to study. me and soggae did productive things in the 1st half of that day but in the end, when sy finally came, i ended up getting them addicted to teen titans so all that production went zoom down the drain faster than u can get a mind whipe. hahaha, in the end we realised that in the teen titans game, soggae rawks on cyborg. Cyborg is this really huge grizzly bear look-alike teen titan and whenever i control him, i get K.O.ed at the part where you fight that girl in that purple hair. the first level basically. i really do suck. and and sy is actually quite good in starfire LOL. and yeah, starfire is that really pretty teen titan. okyee maybe not that pretty but still that prettiest out of all of them. and she hovers in the hair and that i think is really annoying so i cant really control that. bleachxx. and for starfire? i cant even use her super powers! im like kick kick punch punch! aww that's like so sad. as for me? my character is raven. well she's kinda kewl. LOL but i prefer to use robin and somehow i always get better results with raven coz i dunno why. hahaa but beast boy was the worst, no one could control him at all. and whenever i do, i get thta really strange small bird swooping down from the skies, if u can call those muddy cloloured skies, skies at all. and that is no good. coz im always getting K.O lol. come to think of it, im actually quite lousy in comp games.
im supposed to be studying math now but ohwells.
i really do hope i get into council =)

council nominee voting finally over and im feeling so... stressed. O.o LOL got math test coming up soon and msyeo says that it's difficult so it means that either i mug like crazy or i die. wheehee, guess which option i'll take? (=
blubblub, on the 19th of this mth, there would be a 100% praise and worship service in my church (The Bible Church) and 100% is super nice so must go... teehee, hoping that i can drag some people there. (=
orhorh and the song lan se feng bao by jay chou is super nice. okyee, maybe the first few times u listen to it, it'll be quite strange and people might not like it, but the more u listen to it, it's like u're addicted to the song... bleachxx at least that's what happened to me. lol so now im like listening to it everyday! (=
i hope the school of rock accept me soon, if not i'll be stuck with my mother's wishes and that's not very nice, coz everything's classical. which pretty suck.
ROAR. study hard for math! =pats myself=
tinothyine was made last fri =3
tinothyine love.

orh blog about happie things. hmm lemmie see what happie thingy happened today... eh, ohyes! physics test. everything that came out ngcheekiat never go thru! you go away =( make us suffer and die like this! nvm, we still appreciate ngcheekiat, dont you think that mrngcheekiat is abit... strange. you noe he waddles when he walks?! i was like rushing down to the LA dep when i was mrngcheekiat walking to the sci dep, he was like waddlewaddlewaddle LOL so farnie, i almost laugh la. teehee! orh you noe it's like super saddening to see a teacher's hair chopped off and gone and now become some... stump of strange tintin hair. eeee, i think i shall delicate this post to ngcheekiat since im blogging about him, and discovering the fact that he waddles was the best thing that happened to me todae. lol. i think mrs koh is abit ~.~ by our class. she's like damn inspirational if she wants to be inspirational, if not she's quite boring. well, at least that's what some people say. teehee!
lalala me and grace would get into council together (i hope)
some people are so mean T.T

I might not be able to get into council tomorrow as i didn't do council attatchment duty and the marks that the council attatchment duty is about 20% to 30% of the marks. the first time was because liann was sick T.T and then the second time was because we had science test and it ended late. so *kaput* no more marks. lets say it's 30%, that means that i need to get a 100% on school voting to allow me to get into council coz i didnt think i did will for the interview and the sabaticals. that's only maybe that i can get in, lets say that the passing is 50% and i think it is 50%... then i've already gotten zero for 30%, so im left with 70%, that means to pass i have to get like everyone to vote for me tomorrow. and obviously that can NEVER happen unless by some miracle i suddenly become extremely popular and likeable and everyone would vote for me. but this cannot happen, or rather, it's not plausible.
im scared that i'll not get into council. i'll be letting myself down, my mom would eventually scold me and think that im stupid because the only thing now i got above my sister is age and leadership qualities if i have any (there are people who think that i may not be cut out to be a councillor, but i noe i can, i noe i can help to voice out opinions, i noe i will help the school. i noe i want to help the school in every way i can. maybe if im not a councillor, i still can help, but how? perhaps i shall find a way.) i really wanna get into council. it's not a want but a need. ok that sounds a tad wrong. but ohwells. nervous.

almost everything was screwed today. first thing in the morning was a scolding and a few slaps from my mom just because i woke her up. the second thing was the council opening, i think we did quite okay, but apparently i think the others thought that we screwed. thirdly, for the chinese culture test, i probably flunked it bigtime. fourthly, i got ignored by ms yeo when i went to ask about my calculator. it's like im invisible or something, and being ignored for all my life, im begining to hate that feeling. it's like a emptiness eating you up. and all you can do is smile. as for the fifth, my mom hung up on me half-way through our after school conversation, just because she wanted to put on make-up. my leg was hurting, she cared, not. as for the sixth, this is not really relavent but i feel like i dont belong in the neighbourhood anymore. shortie daoed me! =(
for the seventh thing? i actually couldn't study history at all. eight. my dad hates me.
cheers. life's like that.