Contrary to popular belief that exam is a merit good, I would like to propose that exams are actually demerit goods. Exams is a demerit good because it causes the society to feel depressed, worried, panicky. When the students are studying, their friends feel very depressed worried and stressed as they are not studying as much, and parents will always be worried about their child.

This causes NEGATIVE EXTERNALITY.

I put forward the proposition for a total ban on exams because of the extent of negative externality it produces. It doesn't matter if the total welfare loss is greater than when it's at the equilibrium level.
The negative externality is too great already.

Furthermore, there's also opportunity cost involved when studying for exams. For example, instead of studying on 28 June 09, the student could have gone for The Big Groove D=

Look, I'm not so big on responsibility on the whole but I feel that a human should at least have basic responsibility. At least try to fulfill what you have promised. If you promised someone to come at a certain time, do it. Don't procrastinate and come an hour later, or send an sms to say "oh I forgot about the tuition so I'll come 30min later" then appear 30min later than the time you have specified.

LOOK. IF YOU'RE GIVING TUITION YOU SHOULDN'T EVEN BE FORGETTING ABOUT THE TUITION!?

And for another certain someone, I know that you like flirting with men, especially young men, but then again, don't you think you should stand up against one when it's time to do so! Hello, he's so obviously in the wrong and I don't even have the right to be angry? What on earth is this?

ARGHHHHH I'M SO FREAKING PISSED WITH YOU GUYS.
IS BEING RESPONSIBLE REALLY THAT HARD?!?!?!?!?!?

HAHA ohman, it hit me again, teckjin, eugene and jchan are all really talented with instruments

And there were bgirls in sgbboy today yeah but ><
Ohman, bboy boy's so cool =D

LOL and sarahsiau darn hilarious

Congratulation to the new exco XD


This post is inconsequential and means nothing. It's just something that I can pour my thoughts into.

何で?
I told myself time and time again that I won't sink into this maniacal depression state, but I couldn't do it. I guess I finally understand why I failed so many times. I don't have the stability of a good leader, in fact I don't have anything.

I can't talk to people in front of a crowd, I can't even speak from the depths of my heart to a small group of people. All I can do is this, type stuff in the computer for others to read. I can't even say it out.

Not that I dislike the new exco, but there's this sense of bitter jealousy towards the people who got in and are able to contribute. It gnawing away in my heart - that creature - and no matter how many times I psycho myself that No, give it up. They are better than you, you're still able to contribute in different ways. Whatever you thought before was not substantial because they are the chosen ones, you were not chosen. You really still do have a chance to contribute, you'll be fine like this. You're not worthless.

But in actual fact, I am indeed worthless. Just like what my parents say, learn to admit defeat when you know that you're defeated before you even try.

It's always nice to know that someone is behind you. Especially if those someones are seniors that helped you along on the way. Kudos to those who knew that their division snrs were behind them all the way even till the end. Will anyone ever see my worth?

JIAYOU MY FELLOW PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T GET INTO EXCO THIS TIME. WE CAN ALWAYS HELP OUT MORE FOR DANCE NIGHT NEXT YEAR. WE WILL SUPPORT THE EXCO FOR WHATEVER WE ARE WORTH TO THEM.

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Sometimes I really question myself if I should even be in breakdance. True that I really like break a lot but sometimes it gets really painful just to even be physically there. I know full well that bgirls are quite despised and yet I still chose to go for it. And sometimes when I'm there, when I find myself being the only girl there, I feel lonely - very much so. I can't be a guy no matter how much they call me a boy, I can't integrate into their system of thought and feeling no matter how much I try because I'm very much a girl. And what makes it worse is the abscence of most of the bgirls all the time.
I know bgirling isn't the most appealing form of dance, but it still manages to hold some kind of beauty in itself. I don't think that just because it is dominated by guys, the bgirls should withdraw further into the comfort zone that we have drawn out for ourselves. How do we expect to do it well if we don't even bother to go for trainings, let alone practise. Perhaps this feeling of mild anger was borne out of the lonely feeling during trainings. But then again, sometimes it doesn't make any difference if anyone comes because the focus is not there.

Loneliness. Worthlessness.
I don't want to be despised.

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And then again everything is just me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me me as if I'm something important.

I'm going to be selfish for awhile more,
Lord please help me get through this.
Help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help help
I really can't do this alone.

I've got this splitting headache now. Probably falling sick soon because of the lethargic feeling and stuff.

I'm not sure what would happen tomorrow but I really hope that I'd be able to face the results fully and not sink into some maniacal depression because of one post. I hope that I'll remember that there are still other things that I can do besides being in exco.

But I still really want it.

I guess God will show his path for me.
I shouldn't struggle with it so much.

One
Epik High

Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’ away…

Tick, tick, tick…

I want to see your tears pour out
Pour out for no reason
No one knows the inside of your heart
The glass fragments are raging a storm

The wounds become a sickness
All the doors become a wall
I’ve become an enemy in the mirror
Doesn’t it hurt?

I’ll keep anyone from knowing about you
I’ll leave the breath to tighten out
I’ll force you to choose the end
(Aren’t I bad?)

I’ll take away all reason in the world for you to stand
Without the choice of a road back
I guess you’ll walk to the end
Your breath would probably end before my heart

Wounds (When you cry)
Scars (Though you try)
Tears (Say goodbye)
Flowing (The time is tickin’)

You are (When you cry)
Wandering (Though you try)
Through death
(I’ll save you)

You are the one (One!)
When you’re walking through the shadows
When I’m panicking in the shadows
My breath does the same

You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
When all the doors in the world close for me
I’ll support you with my hand

You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
My savior (One!)

Time is tickin’, ti-…

Your hand set the world on fire
You close everyone’s eyes
The suffering that was reflected in your eyes
Like stars became your city

(Are you still dreaming?) Still sleeping?
Are you measuring all the tears you’ve shed?
Hope is a paper boat that sinks
Isn’t it sad?

Maybe you wake up drenched in sweat at night
Is consciousness crawling on the floor?
Are you thinking it’s the end?
(Are you okay? ‘Cause I understand)

I’m a scar on your broken body
I’ll erase the tears you’ve hidden away in your shattered marriage
I’ll grab your hand with mine and trust you

Wounds (When you cry)
Scars (Though you try)
Tears (Say goodbye)
Flowing (The time is tickin’)

You are (When you cry)
Wandering (Though you try)
Through death
(I’ll save you)

You are the one (One!)
When you’re walking through the shadows
When I’m panicking in the shadows
My breath does the same

You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
When all the doors in the world close for me
I’ll support you with my hand

You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
You are the one, you are my savior
(My savior)

Do you have wounds?
Do you have scars?
Are you wandering through the shadows?

Do you have wounds?
Do you have scars?
You’re still beautiful to me…

You are the one (One!)
When you’re walking through the shadows
When I’m panicking in the shadows
My breath does the same

You are my savior
I’ll reach my hand out to you
When all the doors in the world close for me
I’ll support you with my hand

Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
Time is tickin’, t-time is tickin’-tickin’
My savior

One!

Sometimes when with others I feel as if I'm looking at a party through a window.

For you, a thousand times over.

Yesterday this old uncle asked me if I was from poly. When I told him I was from a JC, he asked
"Ohhhh, Junior College! JJ? YJC?"

And when i told him I was from HC, he appeared genuinely shocked.


Thanks arh. I must look really stupid.

New Divide
Linkin' Park

I remember black skies
And lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
As time began to burn
Like a startling sign
The feint had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Ignite the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide

There is nothing inside
The memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
The ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
Between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your mind
Across this new divide

And every loss
And every lie
And every truth that you deny
And each regret
And each divide
Are some mistakes you pray to hide
And your voice was all I heard
But I get what I deserve

So give me reason
To prove me wrong
To wash this memory clean
Let the thoughts cross
The distance in your eyes
Give me reason
To fill this hole
Connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth and lies
Across this new divide
Across this new divide
Across this new divide

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THANKYOU

Stalin spent his entire life going all out for a cause that almost everyone disapproves of now. But at that time he believed with every fiber of his body that communism was the right thing to do.

I wonder if in the future, someone would look back and comment on democracy in the same way as we have commented on communism.
"Communism brought the downfall of country A"

History muddles the mind.
=(

Life is good, for now.

Help me because I can't go through this alone