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Monday, July 30, 2007

Defination of Global Warming
Global warming is the progressive gradual rise of the temperature of the earth's surface. This is caused by a greenhouse effect that traps greenhouses gases like carbon dioxide. This process initially refers to the natural warming trends and cooling trends that The Earth experience over it's long history, but recently he has become a popular term that emcompasses all aspects of the global crisis. This includes the potential climate changes that would occur in light of the increase of global temperatures.


Human factors that lead to global warming
- Carbon Dioxide from power plants
In the year 2002, over 40% of the Carbon Dioxide emissions came from the burning of fossil fuels for electricity generation for the country. The largest pollutant giver is coal, it gives out about 93% of the emissions as it gives out almost 1.7 times as much Carbon Dioxide as compared to natural gases and 1.25 times as compared to oil for the same amount of energy. But the US is still using a lot of coal in their burning of fossil fuels.
- Carbon Dioxide from cars
About 20% of carbon emissions in US comes from the burning of gasoline in the internal combustion engines of the cars and vans. Vehicles with poor gas mileage contribute most to global warming. In one gallon of gas, about 19.6 pounds of carbon dioxide is emitted into the air. The car exhaust is extremely high in most countries, thus the rate of carbon dioxide produced would naturally be high.
- Carbon Dioxide from Airplanes
The operation of aircrafts causes about 3.5% of Carbon Dioxide produced. This figure could rise to 15% by the year 2050.
- Carbon Dioxide from Buildings

Building structure also account for about 12% of carbon dioxide emissions.

- Methane Gas

Methane also affects the Global warming situation rather drastically. Unlike Carbon Dioxide, Methane gas has 20 times the ability to trap heat. This situation is extremely serious as the levels of atmospheric methane has risen over 145% over the last 100 years. Methane gas is produced when fossil fuels are burned. When paddy fields are flooded anaerobic conditions develope and organic matter in the soil decomposes and releases methane gas into the atmosphere. Thus methane gas production would naturally be high in areas where there are many rice fields.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

10:23 AM


harlo!

im currently in the computer lab trying to blog without the teacher noticing that i'm kind actually blogging.

hamster types quickly. and i type slowly therefore i think she should help me. ohwells.

we're both very bored. very very bored indeed..
haha

AND taekwondo sucked yesterday. instead of practising my pattern i was sent to go and teach mushroom head yellow belt pattern! OH THE WOES. then he also never listen to me!
=TAKES A KNIFE AND KILLS MUSHROOM HEAD=

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

9:57 AM

Sunday, July 29, 2007

曲: 小烏龜
歌手: 张栋梁

這首歌要給一個人
歌聲代替語言
深情只增不減
那一刻吻她的臉
地轉天旋

愛的感覺
比櫻桃更甜
雙眼放送閃電
能超越極限
讓人忘了季節
愛成了經典
為他付出所有愛怨

要你永遠是我的小烏龜
我愛你
每一天

昨晚的S.H.E演唱會真得很棒,ella看起來非常可愛=3=3
但是坐在我後面的人都非常吵... 講話又非常大聲!儅she在唱歌是他們就拼命的叫..
那些人不要聼他們唱歌我無所謂,但是別人要聼...
哈哈,she也唱了謝謝你的溫柔,ella 的歌聲能打敗飛輪海裏的四個人!
=)

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

12:38 PM


Believing

The sudden notice was delivered thru the phone
The times we spent together will never happen again

I'm still hoping that i'll be strong with you
A piece of hope that is embedded in my heart

From the bottom of my heart i promise
You are the only person i believe in and-
You'll see the lights again
When you open your eyes and stare into the night sky

I wish we'd meet again and depart with a smile
Do you still remember the temperature of our connected hands

The song we sang together is playing on the radio
No matter what happens, i'll never forget it

What are you planning to do with the dream you desperately wished for
I would leave behind something other than tears
Although I'm not sure if it's courage

From the bottom of my heart i promise
You're the only person i believe in and-
The only important thing now is the overflowing life

You'll see the lights again
When you open your eyes and stare into the night sky

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

12:15 AM

Friday, July 27, 2007

my blog is ONE YEAR OLD. haha i think it's a good good blog.
=pats haara-kiri=

today i was feeling pretty down because of council elections.
wahaha ohwells.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

8:56 PM

Thursday, July 26, 2007

HAHA ohman i saw the taggies!

ya i forgot ZIHUI and SIEWYING who helped me thru all these times and all the other people who played with me!
yay you ppl rawk!
poke wenqi? HAHAHA ohman must look super funny!

today, i tried to make the blog picture.. it turned out quite bad. I DUNNO HOW TO USE PHOTOSHOP. ohman i feel so bad now, total it idiot. haha
and i like black!

in class today, me and xinyu were reflecting about the state of our class. i was very influenced by i not stupid because i just watched it yesterday. somehow or other it felt as if our class was an EM3 class. (at least EM3 standard in nanyang.) it's like only our form teacher has hope for us. i heard that all our subject teachers dislike out class because we dont really produce results. for example, one teacher who tried very hard and who has never tried to give up on us, chiang chiang chiang chiang! in the end, for this test, our class failed really badly and many of us got f9 for our results. only one person passed. and the point is that, the one person who passed was supposed to be in a better class except that our class had space so she was pushed into our class. this is sad. our english, chinese and chem teacher? needless to say. they are all like trying to give up on us.
AND mr nah is SUPER amusing. like WHAAAAAT
i doodled: hellohellohello on my paper because i didn't realise that we have to hand in the worksheet, thus when i finally handed it up, the word wasn't removed.
mr nah did this:
(orange is what i doodled, red is what nah wrote in reply.)
hellohellohello!Go Away!

isn't that like so mean =(

there was another thing i wanted to blog about. but unfortunately i forgot. HAHA
i should go search harry potter 7 on wiki. someone tells me there is like super super super interesting info there.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

10:36 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

do you live, do you die, do you bleed for the fantasy.
the hollow echo screams after you as you shout.

it's better off this way.

AUDREY, XINYU, WENQI(DA) AND WENQI(XIAO) RAWKS.
=)

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:46 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

It's a perfect denial the life i've been living now. just accepting the things i want to feel or i want to hear and denying all the rest. living in denial is good. so good that it creates this perfect illusion around me, this beautiful lie where i only sense the things that i want to sense. it's crazy how i can live like that and still feel alone despite the lie, the illusion, the perfect imagine that i've created around my personal space. it's just not right that i'm living under this perfect lie where everything is nice and good and still feel like just letting all that pent up anger out somewhere, somehow while all the other children in the other countries are suffering from hunger and desperation. where is the beautiful lie, the perfect denial?

DON'T you dare tell me that my life is much better than those children that i have just talked about and i have absolutely no idea what i am ranting about. because i know that fact and i know that i might not make any sense. but do you? how about you? your life is so perfect that you don't even have to live in perfect denial. how am i supposed to accept that when you are so happy and i'm trying to comfort myself by believing everything will be alright. the best thing is that we're both living in the same house. same house, same parents, same life? perhaps in the happy illusion of the mad, our lives could be the same, it may be the same. but in this hypocritical world, it isn't so. how can you say that i am just making myself miserable when i have actually gone through so much more compared to you. in your beautiful illusion about the fairness of our parents, you never feel, never think about how i would feel about those shit, those beatings that i get and you never gotten. how would you think i would feel if you stand there and laugh at my misery. right, misery is my best friend, so you say. i'm living in a lie all together. there's nothing more to accept and nothing more to deny.

Tomorrow's another opportunity to be alone somewhere in the dark, to be irritated and angry inside, happy and smiling outside. sometimes, people ask why i can't be aggressive, why am i so soft. i have no answer for them. what can i do but live inside this facade where everything is all peaceful and happy. there is nothing more or nothing less. i'm waiting for the time where i burst again. it's been years since that happened, and i have a feeling that it would come soon. coz everything is just going so wrong. and i feel as if i have done people wrong, but can't make up to them. expect that i don't really know what i did wrong.

i think im just ranting now. the thought have ran amok and my arm is hurting. i should probably spar today just to make it hurt more.

although the hurt on the outside hurts, the hurt beneath my skin hurts more.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

6:42 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007

scrub the last post. I AM SO GOING TO FAIL ALL MY TESTS

i consulted spca on my kitten and the answer given is that,
she is most likely on heat.
so i have to get her sterilized soon.. =(
and the kitten would be under GA when doing that operation. ohman so scary im worried.

up to now im worried that/for:
- my granny
- meow
- bass guitar
- my term 3 tests
- those two
this sucks.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

8:48 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

i should be happy (= at least im in the top 8. and i think i might not fail sch exams.

and yet sometimes i just feel erm, left out and alone.
and no im so not pms-ing.
sometimes i feel as if im trying too hard to be someone i cannot be. like it's just so difficult to integrate into the throws team. i mean i love the throws team and everything but it's like.. difficult. no im not against the throws team, i really really like the team a lot. it's just that.. i dunno. we're mostly on different wavelengths. probably coz i don't really watch any of those shows that they watch or talk about intellectual stuff like i dunno bio, or not as outgoing as some of the members, so sometimes i just fade into the wall. it's like i can disappear and no one would say anything. no one would even know. that's just how i feel, but i really like the throws team. and this alone feelings is not only reflected in my cca, in class also. used to have some really close friends, in the end we just drifted apart because of some other close friends that they have, and how much i disappear during lunch and during lessons at this period. i think they find that they can't really talk to me much or get to know me much.. misery really keeps me company though. i just can't stand the feeling sometimes. that's when everything sets in and i'll start drifting off very seriously and start shutting up, staring off into space. sucks man. it's been happening very often lately. =( maybe it's just me.

i find, my family not loving me anymore.
i find, there isn't going to be anything to hold on to soon.
i find, myself slipping away.
i find, myself hating people because i try to hard to talk to them.
i find, myself hating myself because i am not real.
i find, that i've lost myself.
i find, i cant understand myself anymore.
i find, that i have no idea where my real self went to.
i find, nothing.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

9:59 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007

and this was what pinky has been training for.

this is one of throws result that is going to contribute to the total score. this is the throw that got me into top 8. this is the throw that i have been training so hard for. this is the throw where my body had to go through so many torturous times, trainings and so much body aches for. this is the throw where it all died at.

i know i should be happy for my result, judging by the fact that i've never actually got into top 8 before. but somehow there's nothing. nothing. haha okay lets just say that i was excited and happy during the competition, coz i really wanted to break PB, like yvonne and wenqi did but i think disappointment set in after the 3rd throw. (the distance just kept decreasing) And after looking at chang-e looking so faithless and disappointed in herself and her throws, my excitement just disappeared faster than you can say "goodbye!" so i just became quite sad after that. =(

and up till now i still don't think that i'm emo. this is the definition of emo.
"When referring to a person's personality and attitude, most definitions of emo hold that an emo person is emotionally candid, sensitive, shy, introverted, glum, and quiet. Depression and broken-heartedness are sometimes used to describe the emo personality. The factuality of broken-heartedness as a personality trait stems from the opinion that emo music contains multiple references to unrequited love and emotional and relationship problems."
do i look/sound anything like that? i don't think i am emo.
therefore i infer from the short passage and my personality that i am definitely not emo. and i wonder why people WANT to be emo. being emo is not a good thing right?

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

4:49 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

i love the bass here. haha im supposed to be doing IH now BUT look what has came out of it! ohwells.


You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

10:04 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

happy post today!

brenda: nope im not in need of money. it's just that my mom thinks i need to start making money for my own expenses now. but yeah we're not tight or anything (=

grace: and yeah dying is difficult. maybe we should just i dunno, do something like i dunno poke ourselves at the places where lee shan2 told us HAHA. jkjk.

the new jay chou song is nice. 不能说的秘密. haha it rawks
i love jaychou.
love!

these 2 days my parents have been bringing lydia (the uk girl) out. i think she feel really awkward around us because my parents are just so chinese. now im stressing on what to get her. she seems like a really kewl person. just the type of kewl that im not very close too. she's closer to the 'bimbo' kewl type than the weird kewl type. ohwells. i think it's still pretty nice, expect that my mom is being pretty irritated at me for not telling her what the other 3 uk girls are doing...

yep otouto's buddy is coming nxt sun.. she's called laura. i hope she'll be the shopping type, coz otouto is not free and i offered to bring her out together with lydia.

i should be happy more often. being happy is a good thing.

maybe i dunno.. i should stay up later LOL

staying up makes me happy.

except that the next day you'll get really tired which is not very good.

hana yori dango I was very nice, but after the 4th episode of hana yori dango II, im starting to get quite bored with the show. it's so.. i dunno. + i think the uk girl dunno how to appreciate these type of asian shows so yeah, i can't watch it with her
peilih said that it was some morals and values difference and i totally agree with her. haha actually peilih is quite a nice person to talk to.. when like i dunno she's not bitching with claire, yeah probably coz i dunno too many people. i mean look at this man, i dont even know who austin is. is that how you spell the name?

haha it's alright to write a name on this blog coz it's not updated/viewed regularly by many ppl XD

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

12:17 AM