i have just found out a few things.
1. im so gonna fail hist. i cant remember anything. all that i can remember is,

reasons of British intervention in Malaya
1. There was industrial revolution, and thus the british needs more tin and rubber, and malaya has a rich amt of tin and rubber there so they intervened in malaya to get those tin and rubber.
2. As the industrial revolution was happening, they needed new markets to sell their products if not they would have excessive produce!
3. They lost the monopoly of China trade, so they needed another place to sell their products.
4. Malaya asked them to help to intervene to solve the problems happening in malaya, such as the secret societies.
5. The conservative party wanted Britain to have more colonies.
6. Malaya is a very valuable market to the british, but this trade could only continue if there was peace and harmony in the country.
7. Other foreign powers would have intervened if the british would not intervened, the british did not want this to happen as the more colonies you have the stronger you would be view as.
8. The opening of the suez cannal attracted more foreign powers to turn their attention to the east.

transfer of the straits settlements
1. lack of officials
- there was not enough officials sent to properly do the administrative work and important projects.
- those sent was not prepared for the conditions of the SS.
- indian govt was trying to cut cost.
2. lack of knowledge
- indian govt too far away, have no idea what is happening in the SS.
- did not adequately address the problem of the secret societies, and the secret societies, (ghee hin and hai sin) was affecting the trade of SS.
- indian govt did not address the problem of piracy, they affectly the trade greatly.
- the police force sent was too small.
3. lack of representative
- the SS had no say in how they were governed, the rules and policies that the indian govt made.
4. protest against the dumping of convicts
5. protested against the interference of trade
- the indian govt wanted to impose trade and port duties on SS.
- SS protested as the only reason why they were prospering is because of the free port policy that was originally imposed by the british.
6. protested against the change of currency
- 1856, indian govt wanted to change the currency from spanish silvers into indian rupees.
- SS protested against this because they felt that it would affect their trade if the curency was changed.
7. rise of public opinion

push factors and pull factors on why people came to singapore.
1. push factors.
- war torn country.
- corrupt govt.
- natural disasters.
- insufficient land for farming.
- lack of jobs.
2. pull factors.
- peace and harmony.
- free immigration policy.
- more land as it was a newly opened country/colony.
- more jobs as it was a newly opened country/colony and there was a free port policy applied and it attracted more people.
- free port policy.

2. my math is going back to worse. i cant even do a simple sum that includes factorisation and expension! T.T and linear graphs, i have absolutely no idea how i passed that math test with ok marks, looking back at when i was pri 6 or even sec 1, i would gladly go back to that life.

3. i cant remember anything about history. and history is on monday.

4. IM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE BLOGGING. T.T but im so stupid and cant control myself that i have to blog about history.

5. history sucks, and thus, they should abolish history or at least give us proper history topics that puny 14 year old children can actually remember. but no, they had to give us pure history topics that normal people learn in SEC FOUR. and quoting ms koh, "actually i pity you, you know the topic nationalism, i actually took 6 months to teach it at a JC. but for you? one term is all i have. and haha, i know your problem, you cant remember the fatcs right? yeah, i agree it's quite crazy." i declare that our school is awfully mad to give us a JC topic, our minds are not mature enough to study about nationalism yet! hello, like some of us dont even know who is osama. there's actually one that i personally know. T.T and they want us to take history! SAVE US. it's supposed to be a PURE HISTORY topic. and anyway more than 3/4 of us are not gonna take history in sec 3 so why bother? oh yes, we have IH right? sigh~

6. CL is becoming increasing tame to me, but increasingly wild to the other family members. if this keeps up, i might not be able to keep her. she bites them for goodness sake. she's extremely heavy. EXTREMELY heavy, i have this feeling that she is... overweight. =.=

7. history
8. history
9. history
10. history

nickelback - how you remind me
Never made it as a wise man
I couldnt cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of living like a blind man
Im sick of sight without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
Its not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and Ive been wrong ive been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream are we having fun yet?
yeah yeah yeah no no
yeah yeah yeah no no
its not like you didnt know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you
And this is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
Its not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time Im mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and Ive been wrong ive been down,
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream are we having fun yet?
yet yet yet no no
yet yet yet no no
yet yet yet no no
yet yet yet no no
Never made it as a wise man
I couldnt cut it as a poor man stealing
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am
This is how you remind me
Of what i really am
Its not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time Im mistaken
for handing you a heart worth breaking
and Ive been wrong, ive been down
been to the bottom of every bottle
these five words in my head
scream are we having fun yet?
yet yet
are we having fun yet [3x]

first things first. i have absolutely no idea what to blog about today, but since soggae just reminded me about some *stuff* that we talked about in school, i shall spend a good deal of time blogging about stuff which we talked about in school. quite disturbing topics.
well, somehow or the other, sy, soggae and lynn we talking about tampons during recess. and (oh woe, please pity me for i feel terribly left out when it comes to stuff like this.) i didn't understand anything at all. look here, the great liuliu-sama dunno what a tampon is. thus, i proceeded to ask sy and soggae, earning very "diaoed" look from them. (orh now i remember, she was talking about benjamin chai! then it somehow got related to tempons, and some other guy called EM. quoting him, "stop saying the word tempon!!!") it was that accursed word that brought me to roll in the mud while asking what is tempon. finally after what seemed like a million years, they finally replied me! (= so tempon is a bullet like thingy which you shoot up your arse so that blood wont drip out. i dunno why soggae and sy and lynn was so irritated and amused by my efforts to know what is a tempon. if it's just this strange bullet thingy i dont see why they cant explain it to me! T.T so yep, i finally realised what a tempon was. orh another question, is it silver?
yay, i learnt another thing today. frenching. sy and lynn have just educated me on what is frenching. so frenching is a type of kiss where you stuck your tongue into the other person's mouth and get his/her saliva all over your tongue. i really dont see the point of sticking your tongue into another person's mouth and getting your tongue all smelly and whatits. orh, just to find that out, i had to be called an "idiot" by lynncheng. i seriously dont see any point in kissing someone. gosh. dense.
gosh.
orh and nickelback rawks! teehee, be merciful, i know it's old.

i absolutely adore kryptonite by 3 doors down. lol *nods rapidly* i know it's old but its super nice! i shall post the lyrics here.

kryptonite - 3 doors down
I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really dont mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If Im alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If Im alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite

isnt it just so nice? teehee! now i should be superman too and i should go crazy.
sy, benjamin chai IS amusing. really. it's not because of pre-exams blues or what strange infectious disease that we're laughing =.= you should be happy that im not coming after you with a parang and telling you that im not suffering from pre-exam blues. besides, what pre-exam blues are there to suffer from? our fate is decided, the marks are almost final. there's almost nothing we can do to change all that. unless there's some miracle and i manage to get above 75% for everything which is virtually impossible coz my chinese and english and math and physics is really bad. orh, not to mention history. i dont even know what to study for hist anymore. please congratulate me. haha! and im faced with another problem. i hate abosolutely no idea what electricity is about. and for moments? i get mixed up for the clockwise and anti-clockwise forces. i still dont know how to identify HAHA. my sis seem to think that this is funny. the fact that my directions are bad. talking about directions, geog. map reading. i should just die and faint. i suck totally at map reading. what erms, eastings and westings? the erms longditude? i cant seem to remember anything. save me from myself!
on a lighter note, i have just realised that 2nd october is a very popular date for birthday. thus, there would be some people that i should not buy prezzie for but that's so mean. but if i get prezzie for everyone, i'll go broke. *&^%$#@!()!!!!! haiz orh and right after 2nd oct? there'll be somemore birthdays! hail me.

this is a rant
so it has come to this, cursing me so that i would get bad results. then asking me not to blame anyone but myself if i didn't get into triple science. i dont remember anything of this being my fault. i studied as hard as i could, even when i had this splitting headache which threatened to overtake my sanity completely, i still studied as hard as i could, i rarely breaked except if i had guitar or tennis lessons. and people who know me already seem to know that i cant study in silence at all because i would not concentrate in my schoolwork, but my mind would drift to think about societal problems and i'll be warped up in my own little world. this is where the radio comes in to save me from all those thoughts that once helped me in my compositions, but now are sabotaging me by not even letting me concentrate on residential system, and all the other crap. once i have a noise or source of distraction, i would automatically concentrate better on whatever im doing, because i was trained to be like this ever i ascended to pri 1. it was all because of that little brat my parents call my little adorable sister. in this case, or rather right now, my body have already adapted to the situation and is unable or is refusing to accept change. and what do they do? scold me. scold me and blame me for everything that THEY have caused. everything boils down to this. im just not there anymore. it seems like nothing really matters, because now all that counts is how high you got for your end of years. and for me, my chance of getting good grades is about as close as if i murdered someone with my barehands and not getting caught. in short, it would never happen. i've lost my mood and energy to study. all i want to do is to live my life. live it for the moment. but i cant. i cant. i cant. i friggin cant. because if i do, they would scold. of course they would scold, they think they know the best for me. they think they can rule my life. they think they know how i feel. they think they can protect me. right, now all they need to protect me from is themselves. pretty much soon, i'll become nothing more than a puppet being controlled by colonial masters. pretty soon, i'll die inside with only the shell still surviving just to study and bring glory and honour to their face. whyee can't they for once, tell me that it's okyee. tell me that it's okyee coz i tried my best. tell me that i am smart in my own way, but just not studies. WHY CAN'T THEY. instead of all i wanna hear, i come to the conclusion that they want me to be something i can never be. they keep telling me im smart and i just have to study harder. can't they just see that im studying to the point im almost breaking.
now the only escape notion is CL and the faith. and my mom wants to take CL away. if she does, there would be nothing real in my life anymore. perhaps the faith would be there to support me, but who knows when they would do something to sabotage my faith and probably just send me to suicide or something. but of course, the most amazing thing is that they don't even know that they are hurting me or doing anything thing that is bad or stressing me. the attempts to tell them that im already stressing myself up is futile. it is almost as if they listen to no one but themselves. i wished i was a little smarter, only then would they be satisfied. i guess my life is ran by them. the next time, i can't get near to someone it'll probably be because they do not allow. it's so predictable. every move that they make. all those empty words that they mutter in my ear. i guess there's always something wrong with me right? my attitude, my friggin attitude? ohyeah? go look into that stupid piece or glass you call a mirror. MY ATTITUDE IS A REFLECTION TO YOURSELF.
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this is what i found on one website about genocide. haha after getting inspired by a few people.
"on one of the first of my five visits to darfur, i came across an oasis alone the chad border where several tens of thousand of people were sheltering under tress after being driven from their home villages by the arab janjaweed militia, which has been supported by the sudan government in khartoum. under the first tree, i found a man who had been shot in the neck and the jaw; his brother, shot only in the foot, had carried him for forty-nine days to get to this oasis. under the enxt tree was a widow whose parents had been killed and stuffed in the village well to poison the local water supply; then the janjaweed had tracked down the rest of her family and killed her husband. under the third tree was a four year old orphan girl carrying her one year old baby sister on her back; their parents had been killed. under the fourth tree was a woman whose husband and children had been killed in front of her, and then she was gand-raped and left naked and mutilated in the desert. those were the people that i met under just four adjacent trees. and in every direction, as far as i could see, were more trees and more victims - all with similar stories."
genocide. one of the worst evils that humans are capable of commiting. according to rummel, the term genocide has 3 different meaning. the first, murder by the government of people due to their national, ethnical, racial or religious group membership. the second which is also the legal meaning of genocide refers to the international treaty. this treaty includes nonkillings that in the end somehow manage to eliminate the group, for example, preventing births or forcibly transferring children out of the group into another group. the third meaning is also known as democide, it is similar to the first meaning but also includes government killings of political opponents or rather, intentional murder. the meanings are clear, the intentions are clear. almost clear to the point where you can see your reflection through the words. genocide is definately evil. even as a teenager, who is supposed to care more about fashion statements and the love life of people around me, is reacting rather strongly to this genocide happening in darfur. it has been a long time since the confimation statement was announced, that genocide was happening in darfur. pardon my rudeness, and yet bush, the only president to declare that he is against genocide, has done little to stop this crime in humanity. how would one feel if they are four, and is running away from people who are supposed to be trying to murder you? the worst thing is that, you are not alone. you have younger siblings that you have to be responsible for because those evil janjaweed has killed your parents in front of you? you have you bear the weight of seeing your parents DIE in front of you. the stress of escaping is getting to you, but you go on because of you siblings. you are only four. how would you feel? alright? i guess not. it's shocking how some people can commit genocide just for something that they want. another example of someone who used genocide, adolf hitler. (joey, please dont tell me you still dont know who hitler is.) this is most prominently known as, the holocaust. people are evil by nature, some people say. but i would rather say that, people are not evil but mostly controlled by greed and blinded by power. i should just leave this issue dangling here. the coldness of this controversal issue is too much to bear, much less start ranting it out here. concrete ideas to whipe out a whole race just for power? money? ok, some might say that i dont know anything at all. but i do know, this is wrong. so very wrong.
on a lighter note, i've composed a poem on angst today. with the help of becca! my mommy! this is the poem.

.not titled.
it's more than euphoria from the start,
there's no commitment to her flesh or blood,
she cant survive no matter how hard she lies,
revival efforts done behind the front, three tries.

and at the stroke of midnight, she tears away her pride,
with only those hollow eyes staring at her bare insides,
all of her friends know why she finds monsters at night,
but all of her family, asking if she's alright.

while staring at the mirror, degradation,
of her broken self emotion,
she thinks of those who haunt her,
coldness overtakes, she can hold back no longer.

longing, though no visible thoughts are expressed,
she was sinking deeper, to the point she regressed,
if only infuriation was a gift, she would be blessed,
all that anger, all that hopelessness, all repressed.

now the bell strikes, leaving her alone,
lonely, pathetic, far away from home,
she breaks part of her heart, just to release,
then integrates it with the soul, pain for peace.

this is what zx said to add, i think it's unnecessary coz the feelings can already be seen.
(her feelings were mixed
her thinking messed
all that was felt
was all that she could feel

anger and frustration,
the irritation and the itch
for it was her
who will get hit.)

today is an unfruitful day.
after school, i took the bus home with joey. while waiting for an aircon bus at the nygh bus stop, both of us saw djtan walking aimlessly around. hmm maybe it's not us that saw it, but rather joey. hmm i actually forgot who saw him first. but anyway, i was like, "oh that's siewying and soggae's friend from hci." joey replied something about him being sy's bf or something like that. lol after looking at him walking around aimlessly for like a few minutes, joey suddenly blurted out something about loosers and strange habbits, and convinced me to convince sy to dump him. O.o how can she dump him if they weren't an item in the first place. lol i was amused. but i think after awhile, i dunno where he went. i think coz i wasn't really looking at him once ngcheekiat came out. LOL i was like, "joey! ngcheekiat!" she was telling me about how he takes the same bus as us. thus, after that statement, we launched into full gossipmonger mode, about ngcheekiat. actually come to think of it, ngcheekiat is not a really bad teacher. me and joey concluded that the reason why he cannot teach us and why we do not listen to him is because he is too alike us. maybe some people might not think so, but i think he is one of the teachers that is like not placing themselves in an all mighty superior position. okyee, maybe a few times he did (when he was scolding us) but the other times, it was okyee, he let us do anything we want and tries to answer our questions when we ask. Even those irrelevant questions. but the problem is that i think that ourteacher is not very confident of his answers thus, his famous lines, "that is a very good question, can i get back to you? class, your classmate has just asked a question, does anyone know the answer." at leasts he bothers to interact with us, telling us about the questions which he feels can apply to us during our eoys and stuff like that. not like some other teachers who just left us alone when we were already left hanging on an icicle, on the verge of breaking very soon. and what did she do? "girls, i think the problem is with me. u all do self-study." if the problem is with helloyou, shouldn't you be trying to teach us so that we might listen and you amend your wrongs? but no. you had to go tell us to self study. (side-tracking here: i think some teachers need to tell us they are superior and use weird tatics before we know that ment for us to know that they are superior compared to us. while some other teachers just have this attraction and lure to them, they are the type whom we know when to treat them as our friends when they are superior to us. those teachers are the best. there are also another type, strangely they are on the same level as us. those teachers are okyee but normally they find it hard to teach. yep.) the conclusion me and joey made also included the fact that ngcheekiat is actually quite *ahem* cute. cute in a child like way. he has this strange innocence about him =.=, it's very wrong but ya. ooo and his hair! LOL, brings me into many fits of laugher everytime i catch sight of his hair. it's so... tintin!
(this random post about teachers cannot be taken seriously. if you do take it seriously, llama lee, the writter would not be taken responsible for any accusations or any false facts that the reader might see.)
the only thing i did since about 4 (i reached home at about that time) is math revision and nothing else. orh i did play with cinalucia too. she's so violent. must be the wrong parental upbringing. see influence is great, it can even affect a cat that is supposed to be lower in their mental abilities and the ability to adept. *shrugs* maybe my sister should stop throwing her onto the ground. must be that that is making her violent.
... i think parents are infuriating. they dont allow you to study and expects you to get good results. hello, when can that happen? me, getting good results without studying. in a million years man. im supposed to sleep by 11.30, how on earth can i study if i sleep at 11.30! this is so... argh! they seem to contradict themselves. when i am studying in the afternoon, they say, "girl stop studying and help your sister with this math question." after i finally finish the ton of math questions, i felt tired, so naturally i went to rest by reading strips on devientart. she spotted me and told me, "why are you not studying?" so i have to time to rest. when i have no time to rest, i'll be tired and slow. she tells me to get some rest but tells me to studying at the same time. she rawks la, how can one rest and study at the same time! gosh, im hoping that i can have my own time management back by the end of this week if not im dead.
do you hear me mom? dad? nah i bet you dont. you dont even care dont you? go on say that you dont care for the physical well being of ur child but rather you care for yourself. go on spit it right to my face. i promise it wont hurt when i finally break down and become the salvage creature mankind once was. go on, say those cynical ironic words that everyone loves to hear. go on and mock me when i make you lose face. in addition, im NOT going to take over any business that you throw at me. im going into the medical section. so dont blame me if i refuse to plan out reports and mock proposals that dont even get accepted for you during my hols. im so gonna enjoy my hols this year.

the time that i come online to blog or to do other stuff is getting later and later. O.o it's like 1150 now and im sitting on the floor writing this. funnily i don't really feel sleepy, i think my biological clock has adjusted to a later time.
orh today i went home with joey and eva again. lol i think the three of us have been going home together very often, probably, eh wrong word, is because we take the same bus home. lol, actually the 1st time we went home together it's with tianhui also, then joey super scared of tianhui because she looks pervertic. o.O orh, joey amuse me more than i amuse myself. =D and believe me, that's an achievement. then today she was trying to pry eva's phone off eva lol. super funny, i think the trip home should be recorded on camera then joey can see how funny her actions is. even her so called "revenge" is quite weird, it's like she resorted to pushing the window of the not air-con bus because eva didn't want to give her the phone. O.o and she was even asking me, why eva knows that im pushing the window? banana! i can give up on her and she would not even know the reason why i give up on her. hmm, dense? maybe not. i hope she's just acting dense and is not really dense. i wonder how joey's gonna pass in history if she doesn't even know who adolf hitler is. then i proceeded to ask her if she knows who bin laden is!! argharghargh, i cannot believe what joey is made of. haiz, im relieved to be me suddenly.
sy is convinced that we would fail in our math because our concepts are so weak that they can crumble to pieces once it is put up against a trial. somehow i would beg to differ, i think my concepts are quite alright, it's just that i keep forgetting the signs and write the wrong digits. even if she does not believe that i will score at least an 75 for my end of years, i would just do it to prove her wrong. and what's with the i am teaching you morals that would bring you further in life, without this you are nothing. and you bunch of people have little morals. hmm personally i dont mind all that things she's teaching us but can the morals wait til after eoys when we do not need as much help and saving as we need now? to us yes, to her it's probably or rather definately no. morals are more important. it's attitude not amptitude. so what if my attitude is positive? i feel under appreciated by her. i feel underestimated and overly intiminated. it's not my fault that i dont work well under stress and speed. leave me alone for a while then come back, you'll see me doing much better than im doing now. man, all everyone is giving me is stress, hmm must think of a way to destress soon. But no fears! i am practising math like a mad machine that is on the verge of breaking down any moment. some might call it last minute revision, i do not agree. it's merely intensifying my math revision. i've been regularly doing my 15min revision every night for the past dunno how many months so what do i have to fear? probably her again. sigh, im such an incompetent dolt. (= must remain positive! i am a rather good student who is just under some stress. my notes rawks and i am rawky. (O.O rocky =DDD)
malay presentation is coming up. and i cant speak malay for my life, why cant they change malay to jap or something, then i would be able to speak it more efficiently than i am speaking malay now. my malay sounds totally broken up and when i read i have no idea what im reading. thus, my conclusion is that i totally suck at malay and rawks at english. ohwells, that is completely irrelevent. i hope we would do our script by tomorrow, and translate the whole thing and make it at least 3 minutes.

i know this blog should be on some hibernation mode now but somehow i cannot. rar, too many things that this dino here needs to say or rather rant. it's 12 days to my end of years, and what have a studied? hmm somehow i think nothing. roar. i absolutely LOVE science and geog. im such a sincere person. =.=
a random sentence by sy: im being amused by sok being amused by liuyi being amused by eugene being amused by liuyi being amused by CHAI.
hmm lol, very confusing indeed.
orh just now i had chinese tuition-
(at least one of them, i have like three chinese tuition coz my chinese is so horrible. i can become speechless in mid-sentence. i think im like a banana, such a failure and a bad example to the people in singapore. haiz, if any of you see this and is planning to become like me arhs, dont. ohya, specially to zhen's friends, DONT. it's very bad. you'll be at a very bad disadvantage.)
-the chinese tuitor and i was discussing about the lady who went into space. wu lao shi (for it is the name of my tuition teacher) was extremely envious about the person while i was quite skeptical about the trip to space as there is a high chance of dying in space and never going to be able to land on earth again. wu lao shi was trying to argue with me saying that although there is a high chance of dying, machines are so advanced now that it is unlikely that the spaceship would crash. but isnt that something like a presumption or something that is not based on concrete facts that would not result in a 100% success rate? thus, if the success rate is not 100% and the price to pay is death, i would rather stay firmly rooted to earth then fly about in the frigid area called space. and if that's not enough, she began to argue her way through that life must be full of excitement and wonderful acts. unfortunately, i beg to differ. the thing about life is to live your life fully, yes, but who says that to live your life fully you need to do some life threatening stuff. if one really wants to do some strange life threatening stuff just to "live your life fully", why not try bungee jumping. your organs can get tangled up. but that's only your organs and not your life.
i dont know how this happened, but we started on the issue of life, death and after death. wu lao shi asked me what i believe in after death. i said i believe in heaven and the fate of the Lord. since she;s christian she fully agreed with me. then she asked me what i thought of the man that murdered his whole family then commited suicide himself. i thought that it was evil and had no other opinion of it. probably coz i cant express it in chinese. even as i think about it now, i really dont know and cannot have an opinion over this issue as it is totally out of the topics that i normally think about.
(which are very weird i must say as they include things like pink elephants hopping around, a green weasel, education, life, pro-life/pro-choice, and more crap like that. bloody things dont normally invade my thoughts unless im going crazy which i would like to think that im not. exams are coming hurray. im reminded by this suddenly because im being interrupted in mid-rant by my mom.)
i think death and life is determined by the Lord and he works in amazing ways, ways that i would probably never think of in my whole entire life. he works my life in a strange way too. too strange for my liking sometimes. but ohwells, He knows the best for liuliu's life and thus i must also appreciate the beauty of my life. i have almost completed the list of things i wanna do before i start studying psychology. there's only about 6 things left on the list. just hope that the Lord provides these situations to me. Then i would be able to understand everything better than those who havn't experienced it. psychology would also make more sense if i'd experienced all those things.
psychology, a study of the human behavior and mind processes.

due to the lack of time that i face at home while trying to study and blog at the same time, i have discovered a new way to blog. blog in school, during IT lessons. =) haha, btw, we just completed this IT quiz and most of us got 50% pass. we're all so smart. =3 i got a little higher than the 50% mark and i feel so accomplished. teehee, everyone must be proud of me! i got an IP pass. and the teacher has just told us that our class is exceptionally lousy in IT haha. O.O
er rensyn just stole some pop corn from me and we're not supposed to eat in the computer lab. im begining to think that rensyn is perverted and breaks rules. lol, salamat dating. how nice. orh wenqi also ate in the computer lab. i shall give in to the temptation and eat in the computer lab too! wheehee. okyee, just one piece.
orh during chinese lesson, i was feeling extremely bored and thus picked up a pen and started to doodle on my skin. haha, i was thinking about bio and thus got related to cells and stuff so i doodled the word cells on my hand wheehee so fun. then the marker ink started to spread like i was some kind of climography paper. (how on earth do u spell that?) so i thought of destruction of my skin. then wrote destruction there. so the thingy ended up as cell destruction! teehee and i propose that me and sy play chasing cars under that name. cell destruction! so pretty the phrase.
I suddenly think that rensyn is nice =D
=.= no that;s by rensyn herself.
POD rawks! i shall blog the lyrics here.

goodbye for now - P.O.D
I can still see the light
at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times
even when I lose my mind
But it feels like no one
in the world is listening
and I cant ever seem
to make the right decisions
I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say
I dont know what time it is
or whose the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I cant see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows
Cause I can feel it all around
Im lost between the sound
And just when I think
I know, there she goes
[Chorus]
Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long
Goodbye for now
(Im not the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long
(I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin go)
When will we sing
A new song
A new song
Were still smilin as the day goes by
and how come nobody
ever knows the reasons why
Burry you deep so far
you cant seeIf youre like me
who wears a broken
heart on your sleeve
Pains is troubles that
you know so well
Either time dont
It cant or you just wont tell
Im not the type to say
I told you so
I think the hardest part
of holding on is lettin it go
I dont know what time it is
or whose the one to blame for this
Do what I believe what I cant see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows
Cause I can feel it all around
Im lost between the sound
And just when I think I know
there she goes
Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long
Goodbye for now
(Im not the type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long
(I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go)
[Repeat]
When will we sing
A new song
A new song
And you can sing until
theres no song left
(song left)
And I can scream until
the world goes deaf
(goes deaf)
For every other word
left unsaid you should
have took the time to
read the sign and
see what it meant
In some ways everybody
feels alone so if the
burden is mine then
I can carry my own
If joy really comes
in the morning time
then Im gonna sit back
and wait until the
next sun rise
Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long
Goodbye for now
(Im notthe type to say I told you so)
Goodbye for now
So long
(I think the hardest part of holdin on is lettin it go)
[Repeat 2x]
When will we sing
A new song
A new song

i feel super sleepy now days, esp on the days where there is math. no matter if it's the first or last period, or maybe the middle one. im still so super tired that i can like fall asleep once i reach home. it's like plop down on my bed and then close my eyes for a few seconds. before i know it, im deep asleep, only to wake up like 20 minutes later when i actually can be reading up on some history stuff. when i finally do wake up, there's still sleep in my system so technically i cant do anything except walk around trying to shake sleep outta me. and since my blood pressure is quite low i need at elast 30 minutes to wake up and to shake sleep outta me. normally it's about 45 minutes. how nice, so i've wasted about more than an hour sleeping and trying to wake up. slow me. i used to be able to sleep at 1am or something like that and waking up at 5.30am just to go to school, but now it's lik even if i go to bed at about 11.50 i'll still have trouble waking up at 5.30, so in the end im like oversleeping till about 6. yikes so my breakfasts consists of butter and a slice of bread that i can bring into the car to eat. oh, i think cinalucia is taking a liking to the cardboard where the tv is sleeping on. she sleeps on it. amazed at where a kitten can sleep.
soggae thinks that i should not sleep. but im sick with a massive headache, what can i do not to sleep? stay awake by pinching oneself and causing bodily harm to oneself? O.o orh that's just a good idea. =) maybe i should just try that one day. stick a penknife into one of my hands and worry about the blood while studying. sounds pretty sadistic. i feel strange, as if im floating in the air now. i really think im falling sick. oooh so sucky.
2nd october is coming. hmm, i really hope i can finish studying by 31sept so that i can like slack on 1 oct.
i should take more things for granted. taking everything too seriously is too difficult, i should take the superman of my house for granted so i wont be hurt when everything falls apart. hmm when everything falls apart... what a nice phrase.
x.X time to help my sis in math.

haha, i've just taken my injection. yes, literally just, coz im blogging in school. im planning to go home and study like crazy coz it's like 2 more weeks to eoys and im freaking out. im freaking out so much so that im loosing my appetite and vomitting randomly in school. or maybe that can just be because im getting sick. and NO WAY i would want to get sick on the day of my history exam coz it's the last time i can try to pull up my marks and i will not miss it by cook or by crook. haiz but ohwells, some things cant be changed, for example, the fact that i cannot memorise large chunks of words. T.T if someone narrated them to me, perhaps i can remember at least 80% of it, but in word and paper form? less than 20% gets into my head. im such a great person (=
i still can remember term one stuff HAHAAH. i remembered the process of eutrophication from bio term one. i absolutely adore the chapter about ecology. it's like wow so easy. i absolutely detest the chapter about human repro. i can never remember which part is which part. especially if they give me the diagram. i'll die. i'll die man. but ohwells.
exams are a part and parcel of our life, that's what my mom and dad always say. but dont anyone think that exam is a little redundant. students only study for the sake of the marks on their report books. some might not even study, some might use the forbidden way namely cheating. right, as long as their marks look nice on their report books, they would be happy, it doesn't really matter how they achieved the marks or anything. i admit, this idea has popped into my head many a time, but it's just so wrong! is it human nature that we want to cheat? hmm actually thinking about it, it's human nature that we surpress all the others coz we wanna emerge the top in everything. selfish. selfish world.
teehee, as long as there are others who are willing to walk the right path and be satisfied with what they have, their best efforts, i just the world is still okyee. after much consideration, i've finally realised that im no different from the type of selfish, the type who wanna beat the rest kind of human. O.o maybe i should just change my whole point of view so that i can be more at peace with myself and thus can get my desired results which supposedly is my best effort for history. and maybe just this time i'll be able to pass history. so pretty. and geog? WAHAAHHA, i must get at least a1 this year to atone for the huge mistake that i made last year. science? physics. oooh yucky but ngcheekiat is like trying his best to teach so much score well too. i finally understand something that ngcheekiat explained to me. teehee shall write it below.
R (resistance) is proportunate to L (length)
R (resistance) is inversely proportunate to A (area)
R (resistance) is proportunate to L/A
thus, to check the ratio of two wires with different resistance:
L1/A1 : L2/A2
tadah, i totally understood what he is saying! i feel so accomplished.
love myself.
*kissie*
*shakes fist* must jia you for eoys!

Please remember to read the Instruction Carefully. Thanks!
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense. NO CHEATING !
4. Tag 5 people at their tagboard to ask them to do this!
5. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions. ****** (important instruction)

1) How are you feeling today?
beautiful soul – jesse maccartney
er, wow I feel that my soul is beautiful O.o
2)Will you get far in life?
emotionaless – good charlotte
erms, ??!!!!!
3)How do your friends see you?
broken – seether feat. Amy lee
BROKEN?! I think im very whole okyee!
4)Will you get married?
believe in heaven – matantei loki ragnarok
O.o okyee… believe in heaven….
5)What is your bestfriends' theme song?
hateshinaku tooi sora ni – the stand up
makes no sense to me.
6)What is the story of your life?
in the end – linkin park
in the end nothing would be worth it hmmm.
7)What was your primary school like?
breaking the habit – linkin park
eh, it’s breaking the habit?
8)How can you get ahead of life?
I just wanna live – good charlotte
LOL I just wanna live! Yo man let me live!.
9)What is the best thing abt your friends.
come – namie amuro
Come? Erms.
10)What is in store for this weekend?
stupid mistake – gareth gates
O.o im gonna create a stupid mistake?
11)What songs describe you?
bokutachi no yukue – hitomi takahashi
Eh?.
12)To describe your grandparents.
ghost of you – good charlotte
my grandparents are ghosts. Wow.
13)How is your life going?
dirty little secret – the all American rejects
dirty little secrets, wtbanana. I keep secrets and they’re dirty.
14)What song will they play at your funeral?
papercut – linkin park
... no comments
15)How does the world see you?
crazy – simple plan
CRAZY? yeah right man, society sucks

boo, i spent the whole of yesterday (at least from the time i reached home to the time i went to tuition and the time i got back home till the time that i slept.) cleaning up cat urine. =)
teehee, i finally got a cat. and this time my mom cannot oppose to it being kept in the house because she agreed to bringing home the cat when she is in her right mind. so yesterday when i brought home the cat, my mom was like what, why skuli got cat! then she tried to convince me to give the kitten, or rather, cinalucia, away just because my sister is super afriad of her and my dad's super annoyed. hmm, but how can that affect the fact that she wanted the cat and that my sister wants the cat too! but ohwells, i think cina is stuck permernently in my house coz im not gonna let my mom give her away.
teehee! wait till people see the cat.

there, it's a long time since i've been onto this page. basically it has been a rather boring and stressful week for almost everyone in this household. This week consisted of the timetable: study, watch ISWAK/LC, eat, sleep bleachxx what an eventful timetable. since my mom is convinced that my ankle would not heal til last wed, she forbid me to go anywhere. only when lette and qinnie and 'mummy' intervened then i could go out. (=
on teacher's day we went out! meaning, me lette qinnie and 'mummy'. haha before they came to visit me, lynn and joey accompanied me teehee. that day i took a lot of neoprints. and i looked super spas in everything. maybe i look super spas in real life. haha (=
blub. i feel so accomplished, i finish watching iswak earlier than soggae and now im spoiling it for her.. unintentionally! gosh haha and she's like fuming when i do spoil it for her =|
i wished i had jiangzhishu's brain, you know it's like one glance then can remember everything on the page/textbook. and that fictional character can get full marks for history O.o suddenly i feel deprived and stupid. arghhh i need personal tuition for history! who is willing to tutor me for history, i need someone to read everything out to me and read it like how ms koh speaks and lecture during her lessons. did she say anything about rushing tuition? she did say something about remedial right? gosh, i think i should go. but when is the remedial? O.o ohwells.
rah. math math math! DIE MATH. math you gooooooooooooooo away!!
blub, since when have i not been obedient. haiz T.T so sad.
im gonna let my hair grow and let it self flip. bleachxx.

=) THIS IS LIUYI AGAIN.
=.=
lynn has just proposed that we type
this is lynn
this is liuyi
this is lynn
this is liuyi
this is lynn
this is liuyi
who are we?
i don't know.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeexxxxx
=.= retarded.
im not mean! im a very nice bubbly person. right? *looks at the air and expects some reply out of the air*
NO. YOU SUCK LIUYI.
WAHAHAHA.
EAT YOU!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lynnchengyuqi is a retarded, brown, big, fat, giant, er overweight, er curly haired freak =)
aww im such a nice person. see i complimented her! i bet im the 1st one to compliment her with insults. =3
lynn is going to eat all your delfi mini choco mints :F beware:S GIVE IT BACK! assssssssss liuyi.
hahah, i hid it in my skirt and if lynn cheng dares to force it out WAHAHAHAHA sexual harrassment. HAHAHAAHAHAHAH wth. wth. wth.
who wants to harrass you? chi ren shuo meng hua. i am effectively bilingual:3 hee. unlike some of us here..
hey who says! im just er er er BETTER IN SCIENCE AND MATH *ahem* unlike some strange ppl here. *ahem* *twitch* *twitch*
you got fits ah. twitch twitch. bleah:p get your hands off me. ehya..se lang. voilate my body
se lang? COLOURED WOLF! im a coloured wolf? wheeeeeee so fun! im an orange wolf! ooorh. CHEN LANG. O.o HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
hi i shall do a self intro, im chen lang the orange wolf.
go away. listen. corraine may la. gai si de ai. pish. listen...hm..its gone! come back! come back!
retarded. haiz don't you watch korean dramas? strange STUPID DOG. STUPID CHEE KOH PEH. (= im bored.
nvm i shall go and invade lynn's blog now!

BOO! LYNN IS BLOGGING FOR LIUYI:D WAHAHA.
HM.
THATS IT