the choir thingy went quite well, but i thnk i screwed up one part of the wedding. crap =X

there's church tomorrow and wheehee we're celebrating cheryl's birthday tomorrow. just hope that i can wake up tomorrow.

thus i better go and sleep now.

parents meeting was crappy though.
i dont like chiang anymore

有些時候我真的覺得生活是沒有意義的。如果只是隨著媽媽的願望走過這條命的路，那會是怎樣的生活？過這那樣的生活， 我會開心嗎？這樣的生活，我會去享受嗎？他有沒有想過我的感受？她要做的就是把我變成她夢鄉裏的女兒。那就是不可能發生的事... 想了好久才發現不能變成夢裏的女兒的原因。你知道嗎？我也是人。人是有缺點的，人也是有優點的。爲什麽你偏偏要看著我的缺點？知道嗎？如果你一直向著缺點看，你一定會變得很暴躁，傷心。人是不完整的。我已經勁力了，自己也累得很。但是我還是走了下去，但是你呢？一有問題時就把它放在我身上，把問題將給我聼時，每一次都說得好象是我的錯一樣。明天要在早上八點四十五分到教堂去不是我安排的，可是你依然不聼我的解釋，只是要說你的商業多麽的重要，多麽的好。爸爸，你爲什麽變了？爲什麽把東西都丟，仍在我的身上？還記得我小六的時候你是完全不同的，説話時是有耐心的... 你們變得這麽暴躁也是我的錯吧。如果我從這個世界上消失后，你們會不會變得開心一點？心會不會靜下來？
生和死滯簡直是有一綫之隔，可是。從生到死的世界，有人囯的輕而易舉，有人卻不易跨過它。
大樹！一定要忍耐下去~！

i have chem spa tomorrow and i dont feel like studying
training was terrible today. my throws are deproving faster than anyone can say wakazamoboza. T.T oh yes
tomorrow is parents meeting and my mom is going to meet chiang and lee shan2
im so worried LOL what if they come home and scold me? OH NO
im so worried now

i really hope i can wear siwei's skirts, coz im like so fat.

sometimes i wish that i was born into another family. i think my mother hates me. she never seems to be satisfied with what i do or what i say. what is the use of having a parent then? isnt a parent supposed to encourage you and help you in whatever you do? isnt a parent there to help you get through life happily? isnt a parent supposed to be there to give you love, care and concern? then why is my mother like that? she doesnt seem to understand the fact that i actually am human, im actually living and have feelings.

even choir was disastrous today

愛是什麽？如果她給我的是愛，那麽每個人感受的是什麽？難道是恨嗎？可惡。家是什麽？有人說家是一個充滿愛的地方，充滿溫暖的地方，充滿笑容的地方。但是爲什麽我家什麽都沒有？每天一回到家裏，聽到的不是吵鬧聲就是一些很難忍受的嘰嘰喳喳聲音。今天，我用了滿多的時間教了妹妹怎麽做他的英文作業。但是，媽媽一點都不高興，說我沒用，非常笨。難道我做不夠嗎？已經在盡力地幫忙了...這樣的對待公平嗎？妹妹本來不是很聰明，做功課時也沒有認真地做。爲什麽媽媽對我們做的東西，說的話有這麽大的差別！不公平！有時候，生活真的是很煩很煩，在那瞬間中，我恨不得要把自己從高樓抛下去...到那時我什麽都不會感受得到了。當然這只是在逃避罷了。

today has been an awkward and busy day, lol.
and my mom is calling me =X

手機終于回來了！
太高興了！等了不知道多久才拿囘這個手機！

today has been an average day, and i went for training. im not sure i'll be able to make it for the other mondays because of learning lab. if only my mom allowed me to go straight to the class then i can make it, but no! she wont allow me to do that. thus i dunno when my 4th day of training should be. i initially wanted to train on saturday morning but i have physics tuition now. this is very depressing. besides i need super mighty a lot of training because i am so not explosive at the last part. or so says monster.
monster is actually quite okay once he actually talks.

I NEED 4 TRAININGS A WEEK!!!!
T.T i hope that i'll be able to convince my mom about the go straight to learning lab thingy.
lets just hope
for a while at least.

真的有很長的時間沒有用華文了。哈哈，現在再用華文感覺是有點怪怪的... 今天沒有什麽好講的。只是像平常一樣，早上起床，匆匆忙忙地梳洗完畢。然後跑下樓梯，坐在沙發上一邊讀報紙，一邊等父母和妹妹下樓。等了老半天他們終于下來了... 我的早上就這樣的過去了。church made it more bearable though.

上taekwondo課時，老師一直嗎我！不知道是不是我做得不好還是他今天心情不好，但是這樣嗎學生是...太過分了吧！oh! 好消息！今天有個十九嵗的女孩來參加taekwondo課了！yay！太開心了，我再也不是最大的lowlvlbelter了！哈哈，不只是為那個高興！有了她，我也有個sparing partner 了! yay! 真好~ 我真的要把那個sidekick做好... 不然下次又會被老師嗎了...

“你會知道一個人渡過每一天
你會想到過去的每一天
但是你會漸漸習慣了 沒有 我們
雖然日子不見從前
但記憶會永遠　永遠　永遠　永遠　永遠”

yesterday has been a hectic day. but it was one of the most enjoyable days of my life XD

the day started with PCCG, and lee shan2 not being here. so jomain conducted the whole pccg lesson and the response was not very good but at last it was kinda better than when lee shan2 was in the class. we were discussing about the nygh funfair coming up lol. haha cept that this time it is not going to be large-scaled and it's going to be meant only for nygh girls. huiqing suggested that we do dunking XD and i think jomain submitted the proposal already O_O i hope she fulfilled her wish to be the first class to hand the proposal in.
AND deline soh praised our class! YAY i love deline soh!


then we had bio lab lesson... with c.lee! yay! haha it was the best prac lesson that i had all year, because haha i managed to complete the bio practical in time. oh man, i feel so blessed after i had c.lee for practical. lee shan2 is good too, but c.lee is so gentle HAHAHA~! it's like her voice can never go past the whisper. im jealous of the classes who have her for 2 years, they get a nice voice to listen to! and they get a very very very very nice teacher. she told us to hand in our practical to lee shan2 on Monday. isnt that like so nice? at least we dont have to rush our practical out~! this is the only practical which i am quite confident of passing XD
that is mostly thanks to audrey! wahahaha she took time off her busy(?) schedule to teach me how to do the practical yay. so nice! but actually the practical was quite boring and you just have to be super alert!
OH YES. and c.lee gave us the table format too! banana~! i lovelovelovelove her!

yes yes and then the day went past quite nicely, then came math lesson. chiang was er the same. i managed to complete all the math questions that he gave, okay maybe not all. everything but one question. hahaha yay, i should try to take time off to memorize the circle properties!
i love my church ppl~!

yes then came cca, i had to leave early (abt 30min early) because i had to go for choir thingy. yep. and then when we entered the gym it was quite awkward because there was so many ppl. ahem* overload. then all the weights they were lifting were like 3 times? 4 times? of the weights that we were lifting. except for maybe chang-e, but that's besides the point because chang-e is super mighty strong. so when we did weights we felt very zibei~
since i left half an hour early, im going on monday to er replace lost training time.

journey to church.
having asked wenqi how to go to ginza plaza (coz she lives SUPER SUPER SUPER near there), she left me with the clue, take 154 from the HCI side and then when you reach the mrt station (which is so not the last stop) take 189. i got lost =(
i alighted at the right stop but i dunno which side to take to. so i had to go up on the 189 bus to ask the uncle. haha i almost alighted one stop too late when i was on the right bus. ohwells. and the one stop too late is very far away from the church. haha sucks.
ohwells i still got to church on time.
took dinner with carol XD
should i go into worship?

OH YES. choir!
haha yesterday we practiced in the sanctuary with the band thingy. it went quite well except that the altos were off-tune HAHA. super nice. ohwells.
then i had help with the last question of my math~~! happy!
yay i love my church.
actually the most fun part of the day was this part but ohwells. i really dunno how to describe LOL
brenda had help with her math too XD

then i reached home at about 10.45, still in school uniform.
just as i was about to rush into the bathroom, the doorbell rang, and in marched my dad's friend with his 2 children. ARGH.
in the end i bathed at 12++

STILL IT WAS A GOOD DAY.
Hallelujah! Praise the Lord~~

ROCK still exists~!
這是誰？HAHAHA

i should just not blog about what happen over the span of the last few days. too depressing. haha. or maybe i should just cover everything with one sentence. the culprit to the stolen phone is in denial, so are her parents. and im turning into an old man dying of throat cancer...

i love grace =D haha provider of many many songs! you rawk grace LOL
and yesyes lets carry out our evil plan to... WAHAHAHA get carol attached. =evil smile=

we asked lee shan2 for the march babies' birthday cake on tuesday. actually we more or less demanded for one since she promised that everyone will somehow or other get a cake from her. like she will buy a cake every month. and it so happens that march is an increasingly depressing month to celebrate birthdays because of obs and the march hols taking away most of the weeks. SO, we suggested on fri! then she was like, "okay lor..." then we thought for a while. and then she said, "but arh~ i wont be here." HAHA, so fri is out. then she said, "how bout next tues?" then we all nodded our heads.
hamster was like thinking then suddenly she exclaimed
EH~ it's my birthday!
then she was like so happy but after another few seconds of silent contemplation
eh, but i wont be here T.T
LOL in the end i forgot what was the arrangement HAHA but so funny lor. even lee shan2 started laughing.

and i realised that chiang is VERY nice. i told him that my parents wanted to meet him and he was like, oh ok. can sure. maybe in the afternoon... ya.
then i was like wasting my life away during the entire IT lesson because i was so depressed over the fact that my parents wanted to meet my math teacher.
but at the end of the lesson he asked me why and then when i told him because i failed my math HE ACTUALLY LAUGHED. so mean. =(
but he said that he's going to dissuade them if they are really bent on getting math tuition for me. hahahaha YAY. im happy.

我相信生活一定會變得更好！
哈哈！你認爲這是誰? (=

my life has hit it's rock bottom. in short, it really sucks. haha who wouldnt think a life where your handphone get stolen by someone you trust and your lies all gets exposed so fragilely is a good life? haha it's at the rock bottom now. hopefully it wont go lower than this rock bottom, if not i dont know what im going to do. luckily, i 've been going thru all this shit for a long long time and is beginning to adjust to it, so im actually not very upset. ha~ coz one day it'll all become better, it'll rise, one day. there's still hope so why give up everything just because you may be /already hitting the rock bottom. it'll become better. i trust in it.
but i tried to be perfect, and it just wasnt worth it. nothing could ever be so wrong. haha i should just believe that nothing comes easy!

=) hamster's electric guitar was super super pretty. i wish i had one like that. now where is my rich friend... HAHAHA joking (= tank rawks XD

JIA YOU JIA YOU sy! haha if you know what im jiayouing you for. jia you jia you zexin also =D haha you're better than me le. practise more, you'll er defeat me.

tadah. see i also post wuzun's pictures on my blog.

the outing was well... FUN. haha the bubble tea rawks. and we took lotsa photos that i will eventually hunt down and post on the blog. =)

i have lost my voice. super super bad sore throat. we have to go back to school tomorrow~! i hope can adjust to school life again~ coz these few days super slack LOL

on fri i went out with my mom and sis to go and get my phone fixed. i chanced upon something, or rather someone. there was this disabled guy standing on the steps of coffee bean, you could see him rather clearly because everyone stayed away from him. then like he looked so poor thing down there. then he walked away after buying a cup of coffee. on the other hand, i saw another scenario happening. there was another disabled guy. his legs were totally mutated. i think his legs were like half the size of my arms. it's seriously scary to see something that skinny. he limped into borders with the help of his dad and brother. and i bet anything the brother was younger than him. how come some families are so supportive of their disabled family members and other families probably only want to reject them?

life? what is life? tell me the difference between the life of a baby and a kitten. if you had a baby would you throw him out in the streets? would you leave her to rot and die in some unknown home? would you give him away just because he refuses to stop crying? would you hate her because she eats too much and spends all your money? if no, then why? then why would people have the thought of throwing their pets out of their house? or giving them to spca where they would just be put to sleep because of the overwhelming response to their association. why would people throw their pets out of the house just to rot and die in the streets? is that right? that's not even the question? LIFE. what is the difference between a cat and a baby? intelligence? THE SPICES? just because we aint cats doesnt mean that we dont have a responsibility to take care of them if we actually adopt them as pets. how would you feel if A CAT threw YOU out onto the streets for you to live and get tortured just because you were being troublesome and irritating? right, we say it's not fair. we say we're superior.
think about it again.

are we really?

我們都希望有自己的自由，希望有自己的生活，希望擁有自己的東西。但是，付出的代價是什麽？是值得的嗎？自由是什麽？

haha yihui says that i only put one person's photo up on my blog... SO tadah. now guess who this is!

and this

and this (got the name there already but ohwells)

going out with the shackies and the chenghoies later. i wonder what it'll turn out to be like. i'll be like super late. which is not a good thing. at all.

ok i think i better stop blogging for awhile coz my dad is home and i dont even know that he is home. trust my sister to like make me teach her until i am not aware of my surroundings. it's like argh this is the 1st time. gosh im not focusing

and im very tempted by the offer that hamster made LOL. except that, hamster has to get a keyboard for me XD
or a very rich friend would get a keyboard for me. lol, that i can just dream on and live in my lovely dreamland forever.

SING~ my voice sucks.

actually im supposed to be writing my reflective essay now, but i cannot seem to get anything into my head. my brain is not working. when has it ever been working? reflective - reflection for the idiots. bleachxx. i wished that i was smart and have photographic memory so i can dont study. what are we supposed to reflect on anyway? OBS just invoke so different feelings in all of us that we dont even know how to describe it, much less REFLECT on it.

so not looking forward to go back to school.

recognize this anyone?

she's a bloody bitch

又回到了華語的重要性！
很多人都問：“喂！你爲什麽在用華語去blog?” 其實，我也不想這樣做。但是華文在社會上的地位真的非常非常重要。而我的程度又不是那麽高，講話時很多人都聼不懂，寫文章的方法也超...不好。所以只能這麽做。
生病了，要多照顧自己。鼻子的鼻涕一直流一直流... 好煩。=( 自己病了已經夠參了，但是現在妹妹在家， 她身体的抵抗力也非常弱（我想是因爲它沒有吃東西，所以身体才會這樣）。 很希望我不會把病傳染給她，不然的話就糟了！

累了~
明天還要去HCI練習。
希望我明天的表現會比今天的較好！

Once again i find myself sitting here in front of the computer, trying to think about what i should blog about today. and then once again i find my brain peacefully blank. what would it have been like if my day was covered with extraordinary things from morning to the night so i can have like many many things to blog about. but this was not the case. ohwells

i realised that i am not one who likes to think. there was lee shan2 bio remedial today (=
she taught us about the basics of enzymes BUT being the idiot i am, i didnt understand like almost half to 3/4 the things she was talking about. THIS IS A VERY BAD EXAMPLE. any one younger than me reading this SHOULD NOT FOLLOW THIS EXAMPLE. i should try to pay more attention to what she says. but my mind always somehow manage to drift off to somewhere while trying to listen at the same time... MULTI-TASKING. not bad
the worst thing that happened: lee shan2 forgot to bring her howls' moving castle book for me. IM SO HEARTBROKEN. she forgot about the book. reminder to self; never to ask lee shan2 for anything and expect a reply by tomorrow

after bio we (peilih, cheryl, and me) went to corro for lunch. i think i ate too much. i could feel the food floating in me when i was training, makes me want to vomit. BLEACHXX. i hate that feeling. we should train harder and not let guo down! COME EIGHT METRES YOU WILL COME TO ME ONE DAY.
come to mommy!!!

and at night, at tll we watched an explicit video. ahem not for little children to watch LOL jkjk actually it's not really anything. JUST YOU COMPARE THAT with that NINE year old girl who had sex with that FOURTEEN year old boy. bloody....
....................

我是誰？如果我的名字不是大樹，而是“小力”，我會是個不同的人嗎？如果出生時不是出生在一個華人家庭，而是出生在個馬來人的家庭，我會有這樣的性格嗎？我是誰？我是人。那麽...人是什麽？人只是住在世界上的一群動物。

我們一天都會死。那麽...人是什麽？死是什麽？死了，我們會活在哪裏？我們會有afterlife嗎？

看了別人的吉他我也很想要一個acoustic吉他。咳~ 太傷心了！知道嗎？我最要好的朋友的哥哥有一個acoustic吉他，但是他根本都不會彈，不想彈！吉他在他身邊真可惜。嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚嗚，把吉他送給我吧。如果把吉他送給我的話...我不會...不會...討厭你了！
我要我要我要我要！！

真羡慕愛嘉的哥哥。拜托，他連一個C chord 都不能彈好，有一個漂亮的吉他簡直是浪費錢，浪費空間，浪費力氣~！（因爲要抹地的時候要把它搬走）

真沒意思...

i just went for a jab for my lip. it's bloody painful!! and now it's time for...
PICTURE OVERLOAD. ahhahaa

our lovely ziyan and josh

the front cover of the "letter" to chengho (the real person - dead)

backpage of "letter" to chengho (the real person who DIED)

threeeight ppl in chengho (=

SHYNESS (myfoot): rain and 大樹

CAUGHT UNAWARE: nicole

EGOIST: paul bloodylip

what were we doing?

EGOIST: zippy and fishray (although a very badly taken one)

SHACKLETON'S lovely raft. (which apparently they dont like much. LOL)

chengho's group photo on the last day (=

chengho in ACTION. (action-lack LOL)

EGOIST: 大樹

EGOIST: 超老樹

CAUGHT UNAWARE: paul bloodylip

threefive ppl in CHENGHO and SHACKLETON

CAUGHT UNAWARE: rain

CAUGHT UNAWARE: evil-lyn, yunghian, fel

CAUGHT UNAWARE: yanxin, 大樹

eliz and mel

threefive ppl in chengho (=
josh, ziyan, seaweed, rain, 大樹，超老樹

chengho's lovely raft (=

evil-lyn, yunghian, fel

rain, seaweed, 大樹，超老樹

this is fishray. the guy looking back. probably to nag or something.

ziyan and grace. guess who?

look the fishray is evil to chengho! lock us up here so that we can only wave T.T

看起來像個煮過熟的hotdog。但是哪個是我的嘴唇，好傷心，好悲慘，好痛。如果我沒有嘴唇就好！
痛痛痛痛痛痛痛痛痛.....

哈哈，今天起床是求覺得嘴唇特別痛。比昨天還要痛！所以連忙走到了廁所去看看嘴唇到底發生了什麽。一看到嘴唇時，我差一點我昏倒了！是真的！嘴唇的顔色不是不同的紅/粉紅色，而是一個很噁心的黃色。哇，那時我真的非常非常慌張！萬一嘴唇被那個黃色的東西吃掉我就慘了！…現在我很多東西都不能做，咳~ 現在的心情是筆墨無法形容的，真痛…嗚嗚…
所以在這种時候，我真得很希望沒有去過obs！T.T我的嘴！！！！！！！！！

媽媽不知道是什麽原因又氣爸爸了。家裏好像很冷~ 連妹妹都覺得這樣。咳~ 但是我們可以做什麽？只能靜靜的度過這段時間。可惡。那些大人都只會為自己想。Stupid 如果我現在已經長大了，那就會是那麽的幸福了~

那…如果，我去自殺…那…誰會記得我？

i decide to be wuliao and post my last year the neoprints here coz my dad is going to delete all the pictures off this laptop T.T

嘴唇还是很糟糕... 特别特别痛！
T.T 好伤心哦...现在的我连吃饭都觉得痛，连讲话也觉得痛！可恶
头好痛，嘴也很痛，身体也超痛！突然觉得自己不太喜欢obs了。


大树好可爱！but so many people like him =( wa im so depressed. haha in a bid to improve my chinese im still trying to blog in chinese but this is TESTING MY PATIENCE!

YES! im finally back from OBS! feeling really blessed and happy now. actually everything seems so civilized and i feel so... DIRTY. argh. i bet i smell like some stingray.

day one
nothing much happen on the 1st day coz we arrived there like in the afternoon. (we arrived on different boats so a lot of time was taken up.) i was quite scared that my group (cheng ho) would be some weird group that is kinda selfish and stuff like that but in the end it was not like that (= we did some random ice-breakers on the 1st day. i decided to introduce myself as DA SHU, coz i tied up my hair like him and i was feeling really random and bored. guess what, they really called me dashu for the whole five days. HAHAHA

group members are: evelyn (evil-lyn), yan xin, cheng xin (paul twohill), melissa, felicia, yi hui, si wei (seaweed), kim yung (rain), grace (josh), zi yan, yung hian, hui fang, nicole, chen chen, elizabeth and STEVEN LOO (fishray)
his our instructor and the most naggy person that i have ever come across, sometimes i even wonder to be happy or upset that i've got him as the instructor.

after the ice-breakers, we started to play a game. it was kinda like one person would be blindfolded and the other partner would lead the blindfolded person along the path that the fishray led them to. the worst thing is that NO WORDS are allowed. so it means that right can be some strange sound like "RAWR" or something crap like that. i partnered evil-lyn and she realised that i cannot tell my right from my left haha. i so suck. but in the end we were successful in doing the blindfolding thingy.
i didnt bang into anything. evillyn also. HAHAHA we rawk.

after that we did some belaying. it was quite exciting but since the fishray nagged so much, the rest of the procedure had to be done quickly, i was the 1st climber and haha i was really happy. but all of us had to belay at least once. i think i belayed for yihui or something. ohwells. i was a bad belayer. coz i kept getting dragged forward and i cannot stay at one spot. VERY BAD BELAYER INDEED.

we also pitched our tents and cooked. omg, cooking was such a horrid experience, we had to cook rice that night then we had to use the pot to cook. we made a fire, spread toothpaste at the bottom of the pot and started boiling the rice. it was quite good, thanks to grace. i bet it was really infuriating. lol
ARGH. we went to sleep at about 11.
rain, seaweed and yihui were in my tent.
we lagged behind time.

day two
im not very sure what happened that day. i think we just did rock-climbing. i was one of the 1st people to climb. although the rockclimbing thingy looked quite easy, at least quite manageable i think. but when i actually tried to climb it, it was HORRIBLE. so tiring. and the worst thingy is that FISHRAY MAKES IT LOOK SO EASY. sobs. so i was dying and crawling up and the belayers were dying trying to pull me up when i slip and fell (which was many times). ah~ a big thank you to all of you for not dropping me halfway through. thanks rain for holding on! i know im like so heavy hahaha.

then we tried to kayak. but it rained. and it was it. we stayed in camp 2 for the night.
we were lagging behind time very seriously

day three
today was one of the hardest days. i think it was the 2nd hardest day of the total five days. we tracked for a few hundred hours. very very very tiring.

actually the tracking was from camp 2 to camp 1 (PARADISE~!) BUT we had to detour so much to so many strange checkpoints so it took a reallyreally long time. at the 1st checkpoint, we had to build a raft. we tried to brainstorm but due to our lack of brain and a lack of a certain storm, nothing came out of the brainstorm. in the end we just settled on a simple traditional raft. the barrels below and the sticks on the top. we worked together and tied the poles and the barrel
together with ropes. it was really difficult coz we had LACK OF KNOWLEDGE. the bad bad bad fishray. FINALLY our raft was completed after a lot of mistakes and many minutes of working together. we were quite cooperative that day. yepperz! teehee so fun
this was a challenge against our partner grp. i dunno how to spell their name. but ohwells. WE WON coz ours looked super stable. ok maybe not so super but it was more stable than theirs. but we had to make a decision to put or not put the raft into the water to test it out. at first there was a unanimous agreement that the raft should be put into the water but in the end after fishray's nagging, we changed our mind and learnt that the process was more impt than the result of it. so we didnt really go into the water. (=
although it would be really kewl if we did..

we then walk somemore. due to our group's lack to sports spirit, we were lagging behind time once again. it was quite depressing but in the end we persevered and made it to camp one in a not very good time. but still we made it there. IT IS AN ACCOMPLISHMENT. yay chenghoies!

we reached camp one and after bathing we played a game SUPER WEIRD. it's like mind sweeper. (it's called mind sweeper also O_O) and we are supposed to guess the path of the other group. there are 36 boxes and the group has to fill in 15 numbers. the cooperation here wasnt very good. and i screwed many many things up LOL

ohwells, lets just hope no one got angry (=
we slept late coz we were very badly behind time.

day four
kayaking. i hated this day. it is the worst day of my life. it is and will always be. we kayaked for such a long time and i wasnt very good in kayaking coz i didnt know the paddle stroke thingy. haha i almost paddle and kayak until i cried. wa so depressing that day. then somemore im so heavy and my legs are cramped up in the kayak, and further more i was at front. so depressing. but in the end we made it back in one piece except at the last part my hands were totally numb already and i felt like vomiting and my arms were totally like cannot move anymore. so at the last part the kayak was totally like~~ mamamia...

i think i dragged down yihui a lot. lol whoever wanna partner me for water activities nxt time please take note that i am hydrophobic and thus would be extremely slow in water.
THIS CAUSED US TO BE BEHIND TIME AGAIN.

we reached all tired and very tired at camp one again. BUT we still had to track to camp 2. (ya, back there again. super depressing). me and nicole were leading the way and we made it to camp 2 in good time. 20 MINUTES. yeah man! GOOD JOB PEOPLE.

we took a really simple dinner, trying to finish our can food.

that night, josh went missing. maybe it is quite my fault also, for like leaving her out and stuff... (= ohwells, lets not hold it against each other. i should be more conscious of my actions next time. and esp the words that i say. i think im super hurting when i say things that i dont mean. haiz, im so sorry...
COME JOSH! WE ALL LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU! and it's true la. haha, i really mean it! (er not in a sick way. knowing your mind you would think hmm...)

then we had a grp circle. it was one of the nicest grp circles of the whole camp coz everyone was so happy that night. ok maybe not all, but almost all were happy and worried coz josh was finally found! haha the fishray cooked for josh to eat. the first time i understand the powers of the fishray. actually come to think of it, fishray is actually quite nice. but just too naggy. so after playing the "this is a ding/this is a dong" game, and discussing and penning down thoughts, we went to sleep.
oh i didnt mention it in the other days. but it seemed like our tent was getting bigger and bigger everyday HAHA so funny. even rain, seaweed and yihui thought so.
we were all seasick. when we stood on the ground, we felt as if we were drifting in the sea although nothing is rocking. lol

day five
home sweet home. HAHA what can i say? im so super happy that im home, even though my mom is as naggy as the fishray and stuff. im still seasick. i still feel as if im drifting in the water. help me!

i think we are meeting each other tomorrow. meeting for dinner
all of us are dinnering except the fishray.

my dad is naggy too.

IM SAD AND UPSET NOW. siewying told me that many many people liked da shu. T.T and i thought that fewer people would like him. ohman, what if he turns famous. and and and WAAAAAAAAAAA, i dont want xie he xuan to become famous! if he's famous i cant be da shu anymore. T.T

im suffering from constipation.
and i have a cover identity of dashu LOL.

已经是最后一天了，心情渐渐的变得更紧张。如果再obs有什么意外发生你们一定要记得我哦~

真的很紧张，很希望在前一个星期我会好好的过着！

R.CHORD真可爱！

R.CHORD + S.H.E =3
超可爱！！

R.CHORD and TANG YU ZHE. (=

haha i should blog in chinese in an effort to improve my chinese.

哈哈，我的华文的程度真的是很烂，所以如果什么都读不懂你还是聪明的。=| 是我的问题
后天就是obs了，真的感到非常紧张！今天已经紧张够了，但是科学老师又把一些很可怕的故事说给我听！可恶的老师，明明就是要这个胆小鬼感到害怕。 rawr！咳~当天我就是靠你们了，不然我一定会。。。会。。。晕倒！

妹妹突然发现自己竟然发烧了。很希望我不会感染到她得病。如果真的病了，到了那时候，连obs也不能去了还要说什么‘要在三月前达到八米’。

但是在想一下，obs真得很无聊。有些人啊，要去obs的原因是：“我要在这五/四天内瘦九公斤！！”真无聊 哈哈哈哈

海平面的R.CHORD真可爱！

walao i hate chinese. who doesnt understand my post please breathe! (even i also dun understand. HAHAHAHAHA)

haha thank you everyone who wished me happy bdae today! HAHAHA i really wasnt expecting anyone to wish me coz i think like i dunno. really really i wasnt expecting any wishing from anyone. and yet HAHAHA thank you so much!
esp to peilih and zexin.

zexin specially baked a cake for me, hahaaha for that i really thank her. thanks zexin for being hmm NICE. ahhahahaa i really really didnt expect you to really go bake one coz i was bugging you so much. haha yay i really really love all of you from the bottom of my heart.

special thanks to my uncle and auntie who bought me my 2nd cake. i love both of you! even though you would be back in aussie by now and wont ever read this, really really. im really really thankful of what you have done for my bdae. hahaha i hope you all didnt go thru too much just for this cake. and thanks for ur prezzie, i really didnt expect that at all.

another shoutout to my f auntie! hahaha thanks for the fahrenheit cd! HAHA it was really out of the blue and unexpected but i know you mean well. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO LIKE FAHRENHEIT MORE! and one day i will do something thoughtful for you too.

yay thanks thanks. my mama papa and sis also. haha 3rd cake. luv all of you.

orh and to sze han, audrey and mommy also. HAHA COOKIE MONSTER!
and the list goes on.

haha. liuliu is happy