haha i kinda appreciate local bands now, but currently the only song that i appreciate from a certain band is flights of fancy from west grand boulevard. that song's quite nice =3 haha, it isn't screamy or strange like fish tank (band) or the few others that i looked at. probably didn't appreciate the screamy songs because i don't really like pure hardcore punkrock. HAHA i used to like it but now it's so-so.

but flights of fancy is definitely nice. i bet hamster would love to play the guitar.

i think our thingy tmr is going to kinda screw up, we haven't practiced at all LOL. i justed thought of some improvisation that i can make on the bass but without hamster and caitong i have no idea how everything would turn out! just hope can improvise properly tmr. (= jiayou hamster and caitong.

i think this year im going to concentrate more on studies than on anything else. it means that kristopher won't get played much this year... haha, his 3rd string is already dead, i hope more strings don't die when i finally pick him up to play again. =( i think it's so weird, i wonder if siewying still calls her double bass eien. i love siewying's double bass's name LOL.

if i get another bass, i'll name it with another nice name again. =3

lets roar at paul tan together.

this horrible LA teacher right, stole my sweets, then decided that bucktooth deserved to be stuffed into my pencil box =___=

poor sweet, poor bucktooth.

never ask for permission somemore.
HAHA but who ask their students for permission?

so many could haves.

let me not regret this year.

let this year be a year where i am satisfied.

and yet,
why?
it's starting to screw up already.

study, study, study. mug hard and i'll be satisfied.
i have no need for human emotions.

it feels a little weird to be alive
and alone.

你最近还好吗
S.H.E

挑一张耶诞卡写上
满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底
你能不能收到它

天有点冷
风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天
我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法
让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候令陌生人都还尴尬

昨天远了
明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法
让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念里挣扎
你说会记得我
还记得吗

你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

This is a good song to emo with. HAHA, the piano version is much better, but the lyrics are nice too. Hn

Sometimes you look at other people's blogs and start reflecting about the state everyone is in.

Well, it doesn't help if they're so confused that you don't know what they're talking about at all. (just like me, my thoughts have no coherence, and thus, do i think anyone would be reading this? maybe myself in the future probably.)

Masks.
Again it has came back to this topic, why does it play such an important role in our lives? why do we have to hide behind it. Again i think, no answer would surface from the infinitely shallow brain that i rattle about in my empty head. Instead fear comes, hunting me down like a lion hunting it's prey. How many people are there wearing masks? How can we bare to face those fake smiles and horrible lies everyday without even batting an eyelid? How can we just resign ourselves to the fact that masks are necessary no matter how much it is being detested. Despite all those questions, there is only one conclusion to that. Why should we even bother to think about masks? Well, since everything is more or less fake.

Truth.
Everyone wants the truth. But no one tells the truth.

Dawn always turn to Dusk in the end. What goes up must fall down. What attract would repel. Everything would change. Trust would be misused.

Oh woe,
how gratifying to hear that human existence is nothing but a lifetime of lies and deceit.

Sometimes
it gets too tiring and all i wanna do it lie down and just fall into a deep slumber so that i can stop thinking about all these. Perhaps i'm a stupid one for writing about this when no one is going to read it. Maybe trying to talk to you, to get everything back to what seemed normal to me would be in vain. Note how i use me instead of us. because there was never us, there was only me, and there was only you. Friends? You could say we were friends, at least kind of friends. In a "i talk to you when i feel like it, we talk about anything and everything, but never about ourselves, and never in detail, because details would repulse the other party." kinda way. Look, how can we be friends? Comeon, get real. I dont even know you favourite colour or animal for goodness sake. Maybe we should just stop talking to each other.

But and yet, time after time i find myself talking to you again.
And so we're on talking terms now?

Nande?

Who am i kidding, that friend won't even come here. No one would.

It's been a long time since i had a dream that i actually appreciate. These few nights, many nights, have been filled with restless turning and tossing, eventually blacking out into a dreamless state. Maybe no dreams would be good.

I'm not doing so well at school. Im even beginning to doubt that i can get into JC. This disappointment is killing me.

I love this song. It's called misery loves its company. and i think it's so true.

Listen close as we wait for a sound to go

It's true, we are
we are destined to fail
It's true, we are
we are destined to fail

There is a problem here with our society
The absence of my tears is my sobriety
I have a growing fear and you're not helping me
Am I the only one who realizes it's true?

Beat but I'm not broken
Guide me through with your hand
Lead with your words spoken
Show me how to listen

You're persecuting me, showing hypocrisy
I have a remedy for your insecurity
It's all the same, sadly, nobody works for free
Am I the only one who realizes it's true

Beat but I'm not broken
Guide me through with your hand
Lead with your words spoken
Show me how to listen

Let your light shine through me
Take this hate I can't release
Help me make the blind see
Misery loves its company

When I dream, I see dawn turn into dusk, into dusk

Beat but I'm not broken
Guide me through with your hand
Lead with your words spoken
Show me how to listen

Let your light shine through me
Take this hate I can't release
Help me make the blind see
Misery loves its company

It's true, we are
we are destined to fail
It's true, we are
we are destined to fail

=3

"you are an idiot," he agreed with a laugh. Our eyes met, and i laughed, too. We laughed together at the idiocy and the sheer impossibility of such a moment.

"and so the lion fell in love with the lamb...," he murmured. I looked away, hiding my eyes as i trilled to the word.

"what a stupid lamb," i sighed

"what a sick, masochistic lion." He stared into the shadowy forest for a long moment, and i wondered where his thoughts had taken him.

-twilight

YEAH. look at the eye dissection man.

then again, this world has never been black and white. black is slowly fading away, dusty shades of gray appears. black is gently pushed onto white, murky gray tones develop.

pak pak pak. i sound like a chicken. LOL
nicolea is trying to pull the pins off zihui's hair now.
LOL and yumi has just lost her voice.
sian

okay this was one of the taupok pictures, but it was taken when i was jumping on them LOL (liyan and hsiu) so i was like mighty black blur there.

ANYWAY, i think Dominic James Howard from muse is quite cute XD

Cat and Mouse
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Softly we tremble tonight,
Picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in sight,
I said i'll never leave, you'll never change
I'm not satisfied with where I'm at in life

Am i supposed to be happy?
With all i ever wanted it comes with a price
Am i supposed to be happy?
With all i ever wanted it comes with a price
You said, you said that you would die for me..

We made plans to grow old,
Believe me there was truth in all those stories that i told,
Lost in a simple game, cat and mouse
Are we the same people as before this came to light?

Am i supposed to be happy?
With all i ever wanted it comes with a price
Am i supposed to be happy?
With all i ever wanted it comes with a price
You said, you said that you would die for me..

You must live for me too
For me too
You said that you would die for me..

Am i supposed to be happy?
With all i ever wanted it comes with a price
Am i supposed to be happy?
With all i ever wanted it comes with a price
You said, you said that you would die for me..

http://w3.castup.net/mfa/terror.htm

Causes of the conflict.

After World war I, the middle east came under control of the british, jewish people started immigrating to palestine. (because of the rise of nazism in the west, eg europe and germany.) the great influx of the jewish immigrants posed a threat to their homeland and identity as a citizen/country/one body. Jewish policy of purchasing land and prohibition of palestinian employment angered the palestinians. Palestinians then started to demonstrate. British realised that the Palestinians were upset and thus decided to reduce and even stop the number of jewish people coming in. Jewish people and palestinians started to fight to conquer territories.

Palestinians were GREATLY AND SUPER angry when israel declared independence. because it's a jewish state, arabs forced out by israeli army. Israel cheated and fought a war to extend it's borders beyond what they agreed on with the rest of the middle east countries.

today mdm toh came into our class and started talking in a monotone as usual. but towards the end of the lesson, she became really spastic and started talking about strange things. i think she spoke in chinese for quite a while, telling us about how she was very naughty when she was young. i remembered something like

when i was young and in sec school, we decided to be mean to the teacher. so we were trying to find a question that is so difficult that even the teacher cannot do. so me and my classmates plotted and plotted and tried to search for that question. so then we asked the teacher, "teacher we dunno how to do. help me do."
the teacher turned to the board and started trying it out. meanwhile, the class was being very very noisy. the teacher turned around and shouted at mdm toh and co. "AN JING! cant you see im trying very hard, cant you all use your brains and think also!"
mdm toh then told us that she said. "lao shi, if we know how to think and do this question, why would we be asking you?"

walao so mean.
then there was another one... i think she was telling us that we must like physics. then she said that actually she dont like physics one.. O_O (why is she telling us this, she's our physics cher man.) but anyway, her A levels physics results better than her math results so she decided to apply for physics in the uni instead of math in case she cannot get in. so she told us that cannot hate physics, if not next time we will turn out as physics chers =_____________=

LAME LOR.


apparrently she was describing something here, i think about how small the particles were and infinitely so small that we cannot even imagine them. this is the action she used. =X the quality isnt good coz i zoomed too much. BUT HEY! what can you expect? i was sitting right at the back and there were too many ppl blocking.


the happy image she drew to further explain to us how tiny is a particle O_O

what a strange day.

hi i am yingyan (: and yingyan's pinky's brain!

ARH. PRESENTATION STARTS NEXT WEEK.

What are the causes of conflict?
Is violence the solution to conflict? Or is non-violence a better way as it gives people a voice?

Your research can consist of both factual and opinion pieces of writing. It can include creative works too. If you select a film, novel, poem or short story, you should identify the message behind the work, and compare that with your own opinion. Such creative works can be used to substantiate your presentations and essays next year.
You are encouraged to print important pages of the research material, and highlight or annotate them.A bibliography / reference page is required. Just as required for the R&R piece, you can include on-line newspapers and news magazines, books and printed newspapers in the research.

suggested format
presentation: 5-10min
1. background info
2. underlying factors [sth that triggers these activity? all it need is one reason for the trigger to be pulled]
3. immediate causes (if any.) [social causes? economy-money?]
4. Consequence/Implications/Significance. [analyse]

PARADISE NOW! (one pathetic part D=, boohoo)

People have been trying to kill Bhutto for a long time.

DONT describe. DONT narrate. DO 5W1H (inferential one, why? how is came about and how you think it's going to be solved.)

my mood is fluctuating very rapidly now days. i don't remember being this disappointed the last times when i got back my grading results. except this time it feels as if a double would be out of my reach, and im suddenly not very motivated to do anything. it's like i've reached my limit and im just forcing myself to go on now. really, it's just self-pity. strangely i don't really know why i feel so down today. it's like everything is going wrong. even the people around me are wrong. it's like every thing's so messed up.

i really want someone who really cares about me. because i am selfish.

okay. i must blog about this!

ohman in episode 48 to 50 of hikaru no go, people kept commenting that hikaru was very selfish just because he refused to let sai play touya meijin in hikaru's new first dan series game. okay, i admit that sai havent been playing anyone but hikaru for a long time and sure, he deserves to play sometimes. But has anyone thought about how would hikaru feel if sai played that game with touya meijin? the new first dan series game is undoubtedly one of the most important game to him since he started out on the go journey. And because of sai, he now has to give up his chance of playing touya meijin, and furthermore, it might be his only match with touya meijin. And has anyone thought about how long has sai been playing? Sai has been playing in his own time, then he went on to play for shuusaku's lifetime, so combining these two together plus the time he spent as a ghost waiting for someone to find him, he probably has been thinking about go and playing with people from different eras for a few hundred years. and how long has hikaru been playing? 2 years, 3 years at most? so isn't sai the one that is selfish for depriving hikaru this chance to prove that he is indeed "hikaru" and not merely the shadow of "sai". If he wins this match with touya meijin by the strength of sai, what has he been working for all this time man! all these time he has been studying (even though all of know that he hates studying) and practicing go just to prove himself, to let touya akira and the rest see his strength. His strength and not sai's strength. besides, this anime is called hikaru no go and not sai no go right...

therefore, i was quite disappointed when i realised that in the end, sai played in hikaru's place.

but i throughly enjoyed the game that touya meijin and sai had on the internet.

HAHA, this argument might be biased because i am a SHINDOU HIKARU SUPPORTER

Sian, now is english lesson and we're in the comp lab..

hoho. he's discussing about the presidential elections in america now. actually i believe that clinton still has a chance to get a little more votes than obama. no, don't get me wrong, i'm not really a clinton supporter but still, if america is actually voting barack obama and willing to get a black president this year, why not a female president? argh, i shouldn't really be thinking about this but ohwells. izzit coz obama is breaking away from the norm and stuff?

haha cool phrase here
"power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. Great men are almost always bad men." and another one here... "Unlimited power is apt to corrupt the minds of those who possess it."

It has been quite a good year XD

Having followed good charlotte for quite a period of time, i find it painful that they've changed so much. Looking back at their first album, Good Charlotte, with songs like The Little Things, Motivation Proclamation, and Seasons, and looking at their current album, Good Morning Revival, with songs like The River, Keep your hands off my Girl, and Dance Floor Anthem, it's surprising to see how much they've changed.
No longer are they the personal pop-punk band which write and perform songs from the bottom of their hearts. Now they're up there, all high and mighty, busking in the glory of their riches and abandoning what they've sang for in the past. Whatever happen to the "lifestyle of the rich and famous" man? Now their up there, they've forgotten what they used to sound like.
And anyway, nope, not that i dont like them anymore, it's just that i prefer them in good charlotte and young and the hopeless, because they sounded truer and better. (= well, some people prefer them in good morning revival, and i have nothing against that. seriously.
and the chronicles of life and death is love too. haha.