I'm down on my knees again tonight
I'm hoping this prayer will turn out right
See there is a boy that needs Your help
I've done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired
I'm sure You can understand
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand
And she tries not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow
See, he's not just anyone
He's my son

Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep
I dream of the boy he'd like to be
I try to be strong and see him through
But God who he needs right now is You
Let him grow old
Live life without this fear
What would I be
Living without him here
He's so tired and he's scared
Let him know that You're there

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow
See, he's not just anyone
He's my son

Can You hear me?
Can You see him?
Please don't leave him
He's my son

I haven't had a bad dream for such a long time, but yesterday's dream was so random and scary at the same time.

I dreamt that sok, pete, hernhern (I have no idea where she came from) and ky went out with me. Then we got locked in this apartment that looked strangely like my old house in bishan by a group of anti-japanese terrorists. Somehow or other, sok and me and hernhern were locked in a room to do admin work and ky and pete were sent to do labour work. (Uh ya, labour work around the house)

Then because of some picking lock ability that I mysteriously acquired we managed to escape from that room. Then hernhern was some pro-navigator, so she led us around to the entrance, where we saw the terrorists with ky.

And ky was stupidly shouting jap curse words at the ANTI-JAP terrorists, then they SHOT HIM and brains spewed everywhere and there was this puddle of blood. I walao puked and either sok or me like exclaimed "ky?"

The terrorists looked towards us and again hernhern saved the day by throwing this explosive at them. Okay she didn't save the day but, she saved both sok and pete. Both of them managed to run past the terrorists and down the winding steps.

Me and hernhern were tied up and forced to the edge of the rooftop.

We got pushed off-

And I woke up before I hit the ground.



It was scary la.

And then the creature reaches out, its hands bleeding with the effort to hold on, but it slipped further and further away. Struggling wildly, it made one final swipe at the closest lifeline, but it too slipped out of his grasp.

Mouthing a silent scream, he tumbles into that deep dark abyss and was never seen by creatures of the light again.

It set me thinking.

A good friend. What does a good friend do?
A friend would help his friends when they are in trouble or in need, but what does a good friend do? Does the good friend go beyond his capabilities to help his friends? Does the good friend just merely help the friend and then go home to fret and pray about it? Does the good friend try to push his friends to do something that they don't want to do but apparrently it's good for them?

What makes a good friend?
It's impossible to be a good friend to everyone, so what makes a good friend?
Am I even a good friend to anyone? Sometimes people say that I'm a good friend to them but often I feel as if I've never been a good friend to anyone.

Just like that, I still wonder what makes a good friend?
Does a good friend listen to his friends problems and share his own problems in return? Or does a good friend keep everything to himself. But if he does keep everything to himself, wouldn't he worry his friends, thus making him not a very good friend?

Does a good friend stay the same forever and doesn't change his essence?
Will a friend not be good anymore if he changed too much? Yet change is a somewhat constant, so does that mean that it's impossible to stay as a good friend for a long time? How about in essence? What are our essence anyway?

Does a good friend leave when a friend asks him to leave, or does he stay all the way with his friend? Most people would answer I'll stay all the way but in reality how many of us do?

What does it take to be a good friend?
What does it take to understand the people around me?
What does it take to be someone that your friends can depend on?

I pray that I can be a good friend to those around me. Even though I might not be the best or most perfect person around, but I still pray that I would be able to be helpful to those around me. Even if I do not know them extremely well, I pray that as time passes they would be able to open up and let me in.

This sounds like something I would like/write HAHAHA.
Saddened, but now they're quite different.

But Hayley's voice is still WOAH

HELLO VCTIM!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY =D

Mexican chefs make world's biggest cheesecake


MEXICO CITY (AP) — Mexico has long been known for tacos and tequila — but cheesecake?
Chef Miguel Angel Quezada says 55 cooks spent 60 hours making the world's biggest cheesecake — a 2-ton calorie bomb topped with strawberries.

The monster cake used nearly a ton of cream cheese, the same amount of yogurt, 350 kilograms (772 pounds) of pastry, 250 kilograms (551 pounds) of sugar and 150 kilograms (331 pounds) of butter.

Carlos Martinez of Guinness World Records declared the cheesecake the world's largest on Sunday at an event sponsored by Kraft Foods, maker of Philadelphia cream cheese.

There wasn't much competition. Guinness had no previous record for cheesecakes.

Organizers gave out 20,000 slices around Mexico City.

=D CHINESE NEW YEAR IS A TIME FOR USING MY COUSIN'S COMPUTER TO KOPE SONGS FROM HER.

I finally found out what the really nice song is called - I can be your hero by enrique iglesias
=D

The guitar and lyrics are love!

Yes bored.

I miss tiny D=

OHOH ALL MY COUSINS THINK TINY'S SUPER ULTRA CUTE TOO.
MUAHAHAHAH

Even though there are people missing from the photo I LOVE THIS CLASS PHOTO.

Nice pose grace HAHAHA

Okay this is a not very pretty picture of tiny.
In fact she looks weird here.

BUT SEE PAST ALL THESE WEIRDNESS AND SEE THE CUTENESS UNDERNEATH!

Anyway, TINY IS SO SUPER ULTRA MIGHTY CUTE. She was like awfully scared of me but MY SUSTAINED EFFORTS have made her like me in the end. But having her like me means that I must endure beatings in the future. HMM

And she was superbly amused by the can draw with the funny stylus notebook and she draw like strange stuff on paint! BUT she didn't know how to make use of the colouring bucket so she just used the marker to colour everything, and lets just say the result wasn't very nice.

OHOH she drew me. But it was so strange looking that she just erased it. HAHAHA

Oh, I drew a whale for her, but she decided to add on stuff and colour herself by herself. (She was riding on the whale)

OHMAN I HOPE I'LL SEE HER AGAIN!
soon soon XDXD

Oh.
I was 50min late for a 60min lecture today.

LECTURES ARE BORING.

There was this chem lecturer that was from 405 long long ago. THUS, she started to bully her 405 `o8 juniors =(
She tried to lame to us
BUT IT'S AN EPIC FAIL.

But I thought it was a good try.
It goes to show that all Nanyang 405 will end up lame and weird.
HMM
not good.

I went out with 2 groups of people to the same place =D
and I have 2 photos at the same place.

SO CUTE LA


Me and Qinnie =3=3


Again, we decided to have a normal shot! The lady was nice XD


With the usual people LOL
Zion so cute right

You said that we'll be friends forever but how long is forever.
I fear we might be drifting already.

School has started after a few months of bliss.
It wasn't as normal as I thought it'll be. In fact it rekindled so much feelings that I thought laid dormant during the holidays that sometimes it proves too overwhelming.

The divide between the normal people and the smart people is going to gradually show whether we like it or not.
And it's probably going to get bigger if we don't start chasing that ever elusive 'feng wei'.

Yes and-
You know, I'm not as good as you perceive me to be ahwee.
=[
I don't even equal to half of what you have written.

I hate choosing sides.
Please don't make me chose.

I know I'm selfish for wanting the best of both worlds but let me indulge in it for awhile before i lose everything.

I don't want to lose contact with anyone.
I know that friends come and go but I don't want anyone to go.

Don't leave me

Then again, I might be being selfish for wanting everyone by my side again.
But I feel as if I can't lose anyone if not a part of my heart is broken and gone forever.

Don't go?

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Death
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

I went to watch this strange LAM thing with my grandauntie.

And throughout the thing, I was watching the rather shuai timpani player until people came to TOUCH the lam person.
and blocked the timpani player =(

I can't wait till I escape.
I can't wait.

Yet, I'm conflicted between the thought of escape and pleasing my parents.

How?

My heart is so constricted that it feels like bursting, and my blood is boiling under my veins.
It's not right and yet it's so overwhelming that it chokes.

Tell me how do I teach you something without me or you getting angry.

I'm tired mom.
Tell me how do I go on doing this without loosing my temper while you just scream away.

I wonder where we'll go from here.
I wonder what will become of us in the coming months.
I wonder if we'll still talk like we do in the future.
I wonder who might come between us.
I wonder how it'll be like.

So I'll just wait here and see you rushing past me without a word to where ever you're going, to meet whoever you're meeting.

Death is menacing.

I REALIZED.

I'M QUITE BAD IN TAKING PHOTOS.
Check this out.
stolen from soggae and it really looks quite bad =(


=(
It wasn't even dark.

Another few hours and we shall see.
Another few hours and some would jump with joy while the others would walk away with disappointment in their every bone.
Another few hours and some would cry tears of happiness and hope while other would cry tears of regret.
Another few hours and we would know.

Although there is a certain amount of tension building up in me, I'm still feeling more worried for those O-level track friends. I have merely a single subject to fret and hope about but they have at least six. These points would determine where they go to, whether junior college or polytechnic. After going through 4 or more years of sweat and blood, the day finally comes where they see their efforts captured in a piece of paper.

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND I'M ROOTING FOR YOU ALL.
ALL THE BEST.

However, I was reminded that these grades are just like flowers. No matter how pretty they are, they do not last forever. One day they would become insignificant, wither and die. Then again, I was reminded that God provides and delivers.

Carol shared Proverbs 30:8-9 today
Keep falsehoods and lies far from me;
give me neither poverty nor riches,
but give me only my daily bread.
Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you
and say, "Who is Lord?"
Or I may become poor and steal,
and so dishonor the name of my God.

The Lord would provide for us and deliver us for he understands what we need. He understands all of our cries and pleas. And understanding us so deeply, he gives us what we need so that we might not falter from our walk with Him. He places us in these different situations and places for a reason. And we can only place our trust in Him to deliver and provide for us.

Hallelujah/Halleluyah can be broken down into 2 parts
Hallelu - Praise exuberantly
Yah - Yahwae

I hope that when tomorrow comes, we would continue to remember the Lord and not lose sight of Him.
I hope that when tomorrow comes, we would be able to let out a shout of joy,
"Hallelujah, the Lord has provided."

Gaza strip
Quoting from CNN

"Meanwhile, Palestinian medical sources said four Palestinians were killed in Israeli attacks Sunday, including a pregnant woman. This would bring to at least 828 the number killed in Gaza since the start of the fighting, according to the medical sources. The sources said the dead included 235 children, 92 women, 62 elderly people, four local journalists and 12 medics. Another 3,340 people have been wounded, they added."

Why do wars happen?

Meaningful lyrics

Cry Out to Jesus
Third Day

To everyone who's lost someone they love
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye

And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right

There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus, Cry out to Jesus

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love
They've done all they can to make it right again
Still it's not enough

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
You try to give up but you come back again
Just remember that you're not alone in your shame
And your suffering

When your lonely
And it feels like the whole world is falling on you
You just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus
Cry to Jesus

To the widow who suffers from being alone
Wiping the tears from her eyes
For the children around the world without a home
Say a prayer tonight

Hey,
the fairy tale's over and it's time to wake up.

We were never real friends, we were just searching for someone to confide in and found each other.

Now that you're okay, it's time to wake up.


But I will never tell you this in your face, you're too good of a somewhat friend for me to lose.
Torn.

Okay, I have no idea if my mom was DRUNK or just NOSTALGIC when she started telling me about her first boyfriend.

Sok is pretty scary even in her sleep.

Music is probably like some kind of getaway for everyone.

When stressed, listen to music.

It helps when the piece of music has nice lyrics or is Mark Schultz or is Starfield.



I THINK PEOPLE AROUND ME ARE TOO PRO MUSICALLY.

OH YES.
CONGRATZ TO YANYI FOR PASSING HER JR BLACK BELT.
JIAYOU GUYS!

Time of my life by Mark Schultz makes me sad when I hear it.
But it's a really nice song.

I hope this feeling would go away soon and I'll go back to my usual strange demeanor.

What makes a friend a friend?

FROM SOK AND SIEWYING

1. What did you do in 2008 that you’d never done before?
PLAY FOR WORSHIP. erm STUDY AND GOTTEN ABOVE 71% HAHAHA

[Darn, this should have totally happened a few days earlier. But I started 2009 on a strange note by talking to someone for the entire night/morning. HMM DARN I TOTALLY SHOULD HAVE DID IT IN 2008.]

2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Look to the side!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Uh.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
My yeye.

5. What countries did you visit?
Australia, Japan, Malaysia

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
More hardworkingness and for a closer walk in God.

7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory?
UH...?

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
4th for Shots and a nice msg.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Math. =(

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
DUH. I'm succeptable to viruses okay!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
CAKE ZOMG.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
MY DAD XD XD XD.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
My sister D=

14. Where did most of your money go?
FOOD =( saddened

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
NEW YEAR NEW YEAR ABOUT STAYING OUT ALL NIGHT!
Budden never T.T

16. What song/album will always remind you of 2008?
Who am I - Casting Crowns

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? Sadder.
Thinner or fatter? FATTER T.T
Richer or poorer? THE SAME!

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
TAEKWONDO and studying =D

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Slacking and rebelling.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
IT IS GONE
I wanted to spend time at a PLAYGROUND.

21. Who did you spend the most time on the phone with?
I don't really call people. Those that I've called know who they are.
FEEL SPECIAL XD

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
YES TOTALLY WITH GOD ALL OVER AGAIN.

23. How many one night stands in this last year?
O_O

24. What was your favourite TV program?
HEROES HEROES HEROES.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope.

26. What was the best book(s) you read?
Running with the demon
Knight of the word
Angel fire east
Armageddon children
(all by Terry Brooks)

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
You can actually train people to recognise notes =D

28. What did you want and get?
Haircut and CAKE. Okay a lot of stuff.

29. What did you want and not get?
A NICE MSG BELOW 1.5 T.T

30. What were your favourite films of this year?
MADA 2, WALL-E.
(NO TWILIGHT OKAY)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
Honestly, I can't remember. I ATE CAKE CAKE CAKE CAKE CAKE WHEEEEEEE
Oh I was 16 XD

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being smarter XD

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Street? Ugly stuff

34. What kept you sane?
OH AM I STILL SANE HAHAHAHA

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
JESUS.
HAHA
Zachary Quinto

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Political? I think the economy has disturbed me more than any political issue can ever do.

37. Who did you miss?
Everyone. =(

38. Who was the best new person you met?
BEST NEW PERSON?
I got many many new best friends!
HELLO NEW BEST FRIENDS!
Oh I have a new victim too!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008.
Life's too short to contemplate too much about dying and stuff.
=)
And your parents always think the best for you but they might not always be right, but since they're trying so hard, don't give them a hard time.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
"Saviour, I'm overcome
With your great love for me"
- Son of God, Starfield

Yes photo.
We were roaming the streets late at night and watching fireworks. Maybe the dark isn't such a bad thing after all.
Okay coolness.
HAVE A MERRY NEW YEAR!