Things were never built to last.

Sunday, January 31, 2010

We're now talking to different groups of people, mixing around with radically different people.

You, the smart and I, the strange.

Perhaps it was the right decision to leave it as that when we did.

Though I sometimes think back and wonder what could have happened.

We probably won't ever talk like that again because of the overtly contrasting personality types we have, but I guess it was a good time while it lasted.

I still remember what we wrote the other day, although I'll probably never get it.

I hope you'll have a nice year ahead.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:41 PM

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

To ny throws:

Suddenly there's an impulsive urge to think about you guys again D=

I REALLY MISS YOU PEOPLE.

DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD=

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

12:05 AM

Monday, January 25, 2010

Another nice song by Owl City

Vanilla Twilight

Owl City

The stars lean down to kiss you,

And I lie awake I miss you,

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.

Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'll send a postcard to you dear,

Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,

But it's not the same without you,

Because it takes two to whisper quietly,

The silence isn't so bad,

Till I look at my hands and feel sad,

Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,

Though I haven't slept in two days,

Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.

But drenched in Vanilla twilight,

I'll sit on the front porch all night,

Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.

I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.

I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,

And heavy wings grow lighter,

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.

And I'll forget the world that I knew,

But I swear I won't forget you,

Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,

I'd whisper in your ear,

Oh darling I wish you were here.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:46 PM

Sunday, January 24, 2010

And after flinging dust off our clothes, we reach for our facade and continue to travel through life this way.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

8:10 PM

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Honestly,

I'm really pissed off.

Like seriously what the shit.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

7:50 PM

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Baby breakdancer

What on earth.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

5:39 PM

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

"In Iran in the 1950s, US ensured that it had good relations with the Shah to ensure that they would get Iranian Oil. However, after Mossadeq came into power and nationalized the Anglo-Iranian Oil Company co-owned by Britain, US and Britain decided to boycott Iranian Oil. US was also concerned over Mossadeq’s links to the Iranian Communist Party, the Tudeh. Thus US used the CIA to launch fake communist protests to raise fears of a communist takeover. This was then followed by anti-communist protests in favor of the Shah."

HMM.

Such a dangerous thought.

Is the world, as we know it today, true?

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

6:42 PM

ZOMG.

The moment I got on fb I saw a picture of felix's injured leg.

Well done, we are even more GG-ed.

(hmm boy on friday. ><, ah we'll be doing tricks again..)

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

5:47 PM

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Spilling over with undone homework.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

12:11 AM

Saturday, January 16, 2010

SCREWED.

you know;

Hide and Seek

Imogen Heap

where are we?

what the hell is going on?

the dust has only just begun to form

crop circles in the carpet

sinking feeling

spin me round again

and rub my eyes,

this can't be happening

when busy streets a mess with people

would stop to hold their heads heavy

hide and seek

trains and sewing machines

all those years

they were here first

oily marks appear on walls

where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,

the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek

trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)

blood and tears (hearts)

they were here first

Mmmm whatcha say,

Mmm that you only meant well?

well of course you did

Mmmm whatcha say,

Mmmm that it's all for the best?

of course it is

Mmmm whatcha say?

Mmmm that it's just what we need

you decided this

whatcha say?

Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth

mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

speak no feeling no I don't believe you

you don't care a bit,

you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth

mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)

speak no feeling no i don't believe you

you don't care a bit,

you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)

oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)

oh no, you don't care a bit

you don't care a bit

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:12 PM

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I guess J2 really isn't a honeymoon year. It has only been a few days, but expectations, tests and deadlines are all piling up. At a freakishly amazing speed too.

Depressing.

Anyway some food for thought. Looking at news like the one below, what does one think of religion? How can one be so eager to please their god such that in the process he ends up killing a fellow man? Whatever happened to patience and love? What about consideration and care? Not to mention kindness.

Why? There is not even a hint of kindness in what happened. Stampede at a religious event, killing 5 women, 2 children, injuring around 20 people. How can they live with it?

Seven Hindu pilgrims have been killed in a stampede at a religious festival on the Ganges river in the eastern Indian state of West Bengal.

More than 20 pilgrims have been injured in the incident, which took place when hundreds of devotees tried to board a ferry to take them to the festival.

Every winter, Sagar island hosts the festival, the Gangasagar Mela. Pilgrims bathe in the river.

Tens of thousands of devotees also pray at the temple of the sage Kapil Muni.

Separately, hundreds of thousands of devotees bathed in the cold waters of the Ganges river at the beginning of a three month-long Hindu religious festival, Kumbh Mela, in the town of Haridwar in north India.

'Unfortunate'

Thursday morning's stampede in West Bengal was triggered by a rush of pilgrims to the Gangasagar Mela.

"These pilgrims were trying to board the first boat service to the Sagar Islands at Kakdwip when the stampede started. It is very unfortunate," senior local official Khalil Ahmed said.

Police official Surojit Kar Purokayastha said, "The rush [of pilgrims to take places on a ferry] became a stampede and seven people were killed."

Five of the dead were women, and two were children, the police said.

In October 2008, 224 people were killed in a stampede at a Hindu temple in the north-western Indian state of Rajasthan.

Meanwhile, devotees have been braving freezing temperatures to take a holy dip in the Ganges in Haridwar.

Thursday marks the start of the Kumbh Mela and devotees believe that taking a dip in the Ganges during the festival will wash away all their sins.

"After 4am [2230GMT] devotees are continuously coming for a holy dip. Many of the devotees took dip before sunrise. And now after sunrise, the rush will exceed again," news agency Reuters quoted senior police official, Alok Kumar, as saying.

In the morning hours alone, about 200,000 to 300,000 people had bathed in the river, Mr Kumar said.

Millions of people, including women and children, have also been bathing in the Ganges river in the northern city of Allahabad.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:49 PM

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Okay I should be studying math now but what's the use man if you're going to fail and it's not going to be counted. (Ah, my materialistic instincts just pounced upon the opportunity again)

It has been only around a month and a half since the holiday started. It's unbelievable how much things can change in this short period of time. Sometimes I think about what caused everything to change and somehow narrow it down to one single thing. One single thing that played a large part in everything but can never be fully blamed for the changes.

How is that someone can change so much just for one person? So much so that they don't feel the same anymore. More reclusive, more hidden, less of a good companion. Really don't feel like going back to school to face everything. Think I'll just ignore or pretend not to notice anything. Ignorance is bliss. I understand now.

Change. Change is the only constant, but how constant is it?

Change comes when you least expect it, you claw at it but it won't go away. Everything is broken. And will remain tragically so.

Why can't time come to a standstill.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:13 PM

I think I should be something more productive than sitting in front of the comp and stoning while listening to Hear you me and 23 by Jimmy Eat World.

But then again, there's no motivation.

I guess this is what they call back to school emoness.

Hear You Me

Jimmy Eat World

There's no one in town I know

You gave us some place to go

I never said thank you for that

Thought I might get one more chance

What would you think of me now?

So lucky, so strong, so proud

I never said thank you for that

Now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead you in

Hear you me my friends

On sleepless roads, the sleepless go

May angels lead you in

So what would you think of me now?

So lucky, so strong, so proud

I never said thank you for that

Now I'll never have a chance

May angels lead you in

Hear you me my friends

On sleepless roads the sleepless go

May angels lead you in

And if you were with me tonight

I'd sing to you just one more time

A song for a heart so big

God couldn't let it live

May angels lead you in

Hear you me my friends

On sleepless roads the sleepless go

May angels lead you in

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

12:49 AM

Saturday, January 09, 2010

I stare at the table. To the left a pile of history notes, to the right a stack of lit notes and right smack in the middle, a foolscap pad filled with random essays.

I look at the floor. A messy tower of math notes, balled up pieces of paper with failed attempts to do math questions.

I stare at the table again.

What's the use of trying to rush all my homework out.

To prevent getting more demerit points

What's the use of preserving a clean slate.

To allow a good report card at the end of this year

Why so superficial, so mundane?

Because life's like that, people will only look on the surface. Scratching scratching at the empty shell which we all call a human being. Trying to make compromises that we would only regret later. Trying to gain something out of everything that we do. Trying our very best so that we might lead a good life later.

And so what is a good life?

Everyday we breathe, we live.

Somewhat distracted by minute things, we push through the day like zombies only to fall asleep at the end of the day and waking up to do the same things all over again.

This is life.

This is obligation.

But then again, what are we hoping for?

Humans can be solitary creatures.

We attempt to clump together, but in the end, we end up sitting alone forever, always waiting for the right time to change this solidarity.

We were born into this earth alone.

And alone we would go.

Ah. Homework's making me depressed.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

10:27 PM

Ah HW is boring. and I don't think I'll be able to finish it.

This is a SUPER good cover of it I were a boy. Love it ttm

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

6:47 PM

O_O

My immediate reaction after seeing my new timetable was that. O_O

Not that I'm complaining or anything but check this out. O_O

Monday:

Math tutorial, math lecture.

History tutorial, history lecture.

HMM, having math tutorial and math lecture back to back? Not a good idea man. Then going for history tutorial and history lecture back to back again. Not fun.

Thursday:

(2hours break)

History Lecture

I feel very slack. O_O

O_O

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

5:51 PM

Friday, January 08, 2010

Hmm, what are you to me?

I wonder.

Probably something that appears when it wants to, then leaves the other party hanging, doubtful if you would even reply or respond.

Probably something semi-important, important when you actually bother to be all friendly and nice, but unimportant when you experience your sudden mood swings.

Probably something sweet and sour, sweet when you're being all humble and affable, sour when you give me the feeling that you're trying to make yourself out to be something you're not.

Probably something that's able to make me smile with your quirky antics and cause me to be so irritated with the same set of actions.

So what are you to me?

I have no idea.

I wonder.

You won't even see this reply anyway

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:18 PM

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Holidays have finally raced to an end, and it's currently the last week of the holidays.

Slightly more than a month of intensive training and I'm still stuck at that standard. I guess it's disappointing when you see everyone at a certain standard while you're lagging behind by quite a fair bit. And it's not as if you didn't go for training too.

Everyone says oh because you're a girl thus you get stuff slower/improve slower/can't match up to the standard of improvement in some bboys. But how true can that be? How much of an excuse can you give yourself? Shouldn't you be at least improving when you actually bother to train? [hello body! hello mind! why aren't you improving?]

When I think about the teamings, or whatever we have now, I feel like no matter which team I join I would be pulling the team down. I know I said that (a certain someone) and I were as bad as each other, but now I don't think so. I'm a lot worse than him. At least he improved and can do freezes and all that stuff, I can't even do a simple baby transition.

Where would passion bring you?

And where would talent bring you? Talent. Elusive talent.

I guess all I can do now is try my best, refine whatever stuff I have, study hard, think of new stuff that can be done...

So many things, so little time.

And I just realized that either I've shrunk or I've never really realized but I'm currently the shortest member of the j1 bboy div. More salt on the wound. Michelle is taller than me D=

More than the height issue, really disappointed by the rate of improvement though. Thought I could actually get a decent set before the holiday ended. But guess not.

All out.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

11:32 PM

Sunday, January 03, 2010

Sometimes I feel a bit sad when I get dao-ed by people.

Ohwells.

But I guess it doesn't really matter right.

You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all

7:22 PM

Friday, January 01, 2010

OH. G-dragon modeled for vogue.

AWESOME~

I quite like these pictures!