Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Yesterday I posted:
Tmr will be a great day!
And I was truly convicted of it. But I never knew how wrong I could get.
Great took on an entirely different meaning. A sardonic meaning.
Demerit points. I used to be such a good kid. I didn't chalk up any demerit points in secondary school, did not get into trouble at all. But it all changed in JC. I don't believe that I'm breaking more rules this year, in fact I've been feeling more obedient lately. But it's just so strange. Demerit points just keep coming and coming AND COMING. It's flooding my account. And I have no idea why.
Freak. How careful must I be to stop these demerit points from pouring like rain.
As if the demerit point wasn't enough, training was just bad bad bad bad bad all the way. Not sure if it's tiredness or fatigue, but my body is aching everywhere that it's hard to even stretch. So today's training was quite bad. Thank God for daryll, vern, ws and oneski.
And I dunno what's up with the j1 girls.
Sometimes, when I'm weary and tired, I feel as if life is flashing past me so fast that when I reach out and try to grab something, my palm closes in on thin air.
The suffocating emptiness that threatens to eradicate all you've once hoped for.
And they say, hope is the first step to disappointment.
How very true indeed.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
11:47 PM
Monday, March 29, 2010
Ultimately, everyone would disappear.
Why were people born?
Why do they live?
Why do they die?
Why do we ask such questions?
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
11:03 PM
Sunday, March 28, 2010
SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW.
BLAH
No more late nights outside.
More grumbling and scolding ROAR!
haiz ohwells what can i do D=
On a side note LOL
Remind and Babylon/Baviron are freaking sick!
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
9:58 PM
Saturday, March 27, 2010
yaye qianrui train with me!
LOL
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
1:59 PM
Crazy respect for these people from TBB Rocking Crew
(
Being locked away,) you still can't stop Hip Hop. Hip Hop is life, its creativeness, sound art, vibe, looks, it's positive.
- E love, TBB Rocking Crew
"Hip Hop was the blood that flowed through the vein (bloodline) of the individual, which sparked its adrenaline, and ignited one's body and soul to produce talents, skills and potential, through its creative non-violent dance. Gives us something positive to look forward to on our free time...
... the best part about it, was, that whether you won or lost, home you would go to practice, and get even better at what you already knew, or learn newer dancing styles and techniques"
- Richie, TBB Rocking Crew (The Bronx Boys)
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
2:33 AM
Friday, March 26, 2010
zomg bgirl vegarawk looks darn cute LOL
and ohshit my shoes ripped apart wts
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
12:15 PM
lol huijun asked me to blog abt yesterday so here it is.
Hmm. LOL yesterday was... I dunno, a strange day of sorts for me. Rather enjoyable but nevertheless, strange.
I just found out that I can't dye my hair white because the hairdresser refuses to bleach my entire head D=, he was like oh put extensions can already, I won't dye your hair white, it'll spoil your hair.
Sian then I'll have to think of new colour. Sucks
Shopping with andrea, edwyna and for a short while, wern...
I don't like this season's clothes, like nothing to buy boo sucks!
Yvonne & Huijun
LOL I bet this is the part she wants to see.
Hmm, rather fortunate that I had Yvonne with me, if not i'll be emo-ing in a corner by myself. LOL. Don't know why she keep saying that she's really lousy, because I think she's really not bad. Walao I took like FOREVER to learn my salsa/indian/shimmie, then in 6 months her steps look fine. How is that lousyyyy. Have more confidence la =)
HOHO, we should train together more often and build out relationship. =D yaye
can't wait for As to be over.
and Huijun was hilarious LOL. epic fail
ohman, I don't even know how to start blogging about it.
Actually I feel like As are over liao. wts
Have no motivation to mug.
Feels like a sitting duck.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
10:42 AM
Monday, March 22, 2010
I heart my sister.
Just felt like saying it
Ohwells.
hate math
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
9:34 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2010
A short 12 min break then back to trying to cram everything into my head.
Never felt so GG-ed before.
Ah. Studying is STILL a waste of time.
There's still unemployment, inflation, comparative advantage, trade patterns and advantages of globalization to study before dinner.
I haven't even started on stages of economy. I wonder how I'm going to react to the paper tmr.
Sigh
And I wanted to sleep early.
Jiayou to the rest of the J2s, we probably need more oil than we can ever imagine.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
4:19 PM
Friday, March 19, 2010
(&^%&^$^%$&*^)(_()*)(&*(&&*^&^*%^$%^$%
SICK AT PERFECT TIMINGS WTS WTS
MY BLOCKS IS AS GOOD AS DEAD ZOMG!!!
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
10:24 PM
Thursday, March 18, 2010
FUN.
wish everything can be fun
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
7:17 PM
LOL a continuation of yesterday's post.
We not only have Felix. We got the seniors that taught us a lot of us. Although it might not seem like much I really think it has guided us into the correct past. Plus, they really fei li qi to teach! Not like some other people that (i think) just anyhow teach and don't impart knowledge properly to their friends. Then they somehow start getting the wrong mentality and another person has to struggle with that mentality now.
But haiz we're really lucky.
Now it's time to train harder.
and study for blocks
imma so going to fail blocks
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
12:15 AM
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Actually thinking about it, I'm really really fortunate to be able to learn and bboy in HC. Despite the stress and stuff from schoolwork i think we get a lot of experiences that other people don't really get.
Like one example - the studio. (salt/pe) might not seem like much but other people have to break on concrete sometimes with no mirror to improve and we have a studio like salt. big spacious, air-conditioned. pity that we don't appreciate it enough. At least I feel like I don't appreciate it for it's full worth.
And then besides the studio we have Felix. There are people like Feifei that wanna learn from Felix but never got the chance to. Felix is one dope teacher. Honestly. Without him I bet a lot of us would have started out with the wrong mentality and be worse than we already are. We're really lucky that we got our basics drilled into us. Somemore, Felix's darn willing to help and answer questions when we ask. And when his broken ankle renders him immobile? We get Boy. We even had Oneski once. How many people are as fortunate as us to experience the teaching of so many inspiring RF members.
And then now right after RF jam, there has been a spade of activities that we can go to. Bboy Wicket workshop 30bucks for 6 freaking hours, Profo Won invited to conducted a 2hr workshop in replacement of our bboy lesson. How many people can testify to experiencing something like that. And we can only experience all these coz Felix is our teacher.
We're really super fortunate la.
Should appreciate it more.
Well at least I should start appreciating it more.
Maybe share the love with people around me. Don't condemn the people that started out and still have the wrong mentality because I bet anything that if there were no HC bboy, I'd be like that too. Or worse, I won't be breaking at all.
blah
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
11:29 PM
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Tuesday's going to be AWESOME.
TY and Felix are both cominggggg!
Plus, I bet jrs are all hyped up abt trng after rf jam. inspiring much!
Wicket's workshop was DOPE. More people should have went D=
Loved the question and answer session after =D
I think we should have some conditioning during bboy. We're really unhealthy.
LOL
SBDC. LAWL.
I have nothing more to say.
Not fated la haiz
Regarding SBDC itself, (Quoting Felix: Fuck that shit)
I need to start mugging
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
9:44 PM
Saturday, March 13, 2010
And so it all culminates to this.
RJ JAM 2010.
It was really awesome. Some people say that it was not as good as the one last year but I beg to differ. The competitors this year are woahh. Was really inspired by the few bgirls that turned up today to cypher/battle esp. Bgirl eri and lize!
Bgirl eri is like dope ttm and she's super friendly and nice too. Dope + nice personality = woahhh. I think if it was not for her and her teammate that tagged/forced both me and michelle out we wouldn't have cyphered. Haha. And woahh she's really encouraging too =D
She said she started breaking when she was 16, and she bboyed for 8 years... so there's still hope for us! WOOHOO!
Oh. and most if not ALL of the j1 bgirls came. wonderful! owns the shitzz that call themselves j1 bboys
Props to joey that bought tickets after losing her first one. woah 50 bucks. but it was soooo worth it. bet she thought so too.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
11:52 PM
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I'm going to fail lit.
I guess its so much easier to talk to people if you don't care anymore.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
10:00 PM
Sunday, March 07, 2010
Go on and bitch.
Go on and bitch with your awful friends.
Go on and bitch with your awful friends about your past friends.
It's always nice to see you enjoying yourself anyway.
Who gives a damn about old friends.
Hur.
Just go.
Just go enjoy yourself.
You don't even give a fuck.
So what's the use.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
1:03 AM
Just stfu.
Don't patronize us.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
12:47 AM
Friday, March 05, 2010
It's rather comforting to see happy people. as compared to those I saw last year =/
blah.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
11:22 PM
Today felt strange. Seeing all your seniors come back to get your result feels odd in some sense. And this is one of the days where I start to question myself again, will I be able to sustain and pull through the A
lvls and emerge with victorious results?
Or would I die in some random gutter along the way.
Or would I run headlong to meet the enemies and get my head blown off in the process.
Today I got back my
chinese results. Even though I incessantly tell myself that it's fine, I know that I don't feel fine. So what did I work hard for? Why listen to all those lessons and take notes when people that play around can get higher results.
Hard work vs Natural born talent
So why? I guess it just isn't meant to be. I don't know if I should cry or laugh.
I know there are people out there with worse chinese results, but it just feels so... demoralizing.
And after all that work, this is what I'm worth.I'm going to work hard from now on. Or harder at least. I feel like I've become lazy ever since the year started. I've lost sight of the goal, everyday has been so mundane, so boring that everything seems to lose its meaning.
Recently, I've been feeling very disappointed in your actions. You never used to be this self-centered and unaware of your surroundings. Did he change you? Or did you finally reveal your true nature and intentions after one year of masking. I don't want to lose you to your personal gain. Despite never saying this, I think you're a nice person that would go to lengths to help people.
What happened to you? You're fading into the background, fading into insensitivity, fading into a diet. Why fade? And where are you going to go from here? You could have gone so much further with your old personality as compared to this new one.
You're using people, you know that right. It's not that we don't want to share things with you. It's because we don't want to be used, that's why we're doing this. If you listen, I'll gladly share everything with you.
Come back to the light, don't go further into that dark abyss where it's only going to make you more unlikeable than you already are.
Come back.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
11:01 PM
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
9:50 PM
Yaye!
5 j1 bgirls.
It's finally like overcoming the gender-divide!
Plus they're looking quite passionate too, if no one quits, it can be somewhat an equal division. Who cares that they take longer to learn and master stuff? It's because of their basic body structure. If the guys slack and the girls really work hard, I'm sure they can do better than the guys.
So awesome.
Hoping that their batch will be the batch of change for bgirls. No more misconceptions that breaking's really hard and girls can't do it.
Blah.
You took the fall;
And thought of me;
Above all
9:39 PM
