Suddenly, my time at HC is finished, gone and I'm on my way to Korea for a holiday.

Actually time has always been passing. With everything that has been going on in these two years, JC seem like it would never end. There was always something to look forward to, block test 1, holidays, training, events, A levels... At that time, time seemed insubstantial. Like it would go on and on, without stopping, marked by the different events that dotted my life in HC.

But now it is rather hard to regain that feeling. There are no events to measure the extent of time, so much so that I start to lose track of the days of the week. So, today is a Tuesday. It doesn't feel like a Tuesday. What about training? What about studying? No, I just laze about at home and just like that, Tuesday is gone.

When I was caught up in the never-ending stream of work and fun in JC, time seemed to pass so slowly.

But in a flash everything is over.

With prom finished and the excitement no longer there, it's getting pretty boring.

Ohwells. I hope I have fun in Korea.

When I get back, it would be on a Thursday or Friday.

It's like a chain of bad things happened all at once in a short span of time. I have no more muscles/ stamina. It's like I can't even do a 3 step anymore. OR 6 step. which is the most basic of all moves. I spent the 3.5hours TRYING to get my 6step, 3step, octopus. I don't think I can do a cc or a pretzel. I have degenerated to a worm-like state. Am going to degenerate further if I don't do something drastic like run everyday and push ups every night or sth. As has ruined my health...

I can't believe I even forgot how to do backrocks.

It's a pretty depressing thought.

Very depressing thought indeed.

And when I got home, thinking that everyone was at home, I rang the doorbell. The same way I've always rang it, twice, rapidly. I waited for almost a minute but the door still remained closed. So I did the most obvious thing that anyone would have done, ring the doorbell again, in the same way, twice, rapidly. THEN THERE WAS A FLURRY OF MOVEMENT BEHIND THE DOOR.

AND. OH JOY, my mom opened the door.

"WHY DID YOU RING THE DOORBELL!"

just like that I got scolded.

For ringing the doorbell.

FRUSTRATED.

and I had to cancel on my friends, coz my dad was angry.

sigh

I just got scolded for using the heater....

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wonderful.

Right after As to boot.

Right away

do you know how it feels to be daoed because of something that happened between two other people. i guess not.

1998.7.15